I really feel like typing, so this may be quite long. But I am eager to because a full member here.

Here is my story.

When I started taking psychedelics, I was far too young and my mind is completely NOT what it is now. But I am glad the things that happened, did, because if it didn't, I would not be where I am right now.

First hard drug I tried, was MDMA, and had such a wonderful enlightening experience with it. It really changed my view on everything in life. Every little thing. And MDMA is what started my growth as a human. After plenty of doses with MDMA, I became mixing MDMA with some mary jane. And I am a pretty little guy, and I would say now, I over did MDMA quite a bit. But my first experiences with the psychedelic world, was with MDMA and marijuana. I knew my limits very well when it came to MDMA, and a few nights, I would take upwards of 8 rolls in a night. Speed never settled with me well, so I would always make sure it was as clean as possible. After that many rolls, and smoking a lot of marijuana, things would always get very wonderful. The open eye visuals and mindset was great. To me, these large doses and weed, are very very similar to my one experience with LSD. Except a lot happier. So once I found the psychedelic world, and it started to uncover, my next thing on my list, was mushrooms. First time with mushrooms, I ate a full dub. Because i thought I could handle it. "If I can eat over 10 rolls throughout one night, I could easily handle a high dose of mushrooms". I said in my head. But the psychedelic world on just a normal psychedelic, is far different. Its very real, its not always just 'happy happy joy joy' like MDMA is. And I found that out after about 4 experiences with mushrooms. Like mentioned before, I have tried LSD once, and also I have tried 2cb a handful of times(truly wonderful). I can no longer eat mushrooms now, because I kind of ruined them because of a DOM trip. I am not sure if anyone here is familiar with DOM, but my DOM trip was by far more intense than I believe my experience with DMT will ever be, unless I have a terrifying experience with it. A few years ago, when I was dumb, I dosed myself with 12mg of DOM. A VERY VERY strong dose. I dont wanna get too much into it, but I died that night.(virtually) I met God. After meeting Him, I met the devil. And he was not very nice. At all, and was not forgiving. My DOM trip was complete insanity for over 20 hours. DOM is a VERY long lasting drug. Especially at the dose I took. The entire trip, i was fading in an out of this 'DOM' world. And that terrifying experience, really opened my eyes to my greatest fears deep deep deep inside of me, at my core. Although it was completely terrifying, and scary, it was my most eye opening experience so far in my journey. Because of that drug though, my fears of dying, and a whole array of fears, are now diminished. Since that trip, my third eye has been very touchy. Just one single tiny magic mushroom, will give me a very very strong trip. A scary one, because of the length, it just reminds me too much of DOM.

After a few years of not really touching psychedelics, and not really any drugs at all, I read the book by Rick. DMT: The Spirit Molecule. And I readied myself for a much more matured journey. My views have changed a lot since my definite abuse with psychedelics. I never really prepared myself, nor respected them as I should have.

I recently developed a nice batch of DMT, perfectly white/clear, and was perfectly ready to handle the intensity of what is coming my way. I have taken about 6 small doses. My first dose was very very strong, did not breakthrough, but being pushed that hard into the psychedelic world, was breathtaking. I am fascinated. I am being very cautious, and working slowly until I am ready to breakthrough. Completely banishing the slight fear/anxiety of DMT that it once gave me. My first dose was slightly nerve racking, but once the initial fear was gone, I am very blessed from DMT. I cannot believe at how much it can uncover. Every time afterwards, I make sure to embrace the wonderful afterglow it gives me. Even at very very very small doses. I am taking this next batch very slowly, and am ready to breakthrough. DMT is my perfect partner to accompany me with my new person I have so well made within these past few years. I am comfortable with me, my mind, my worries, my fears. Me. I love who I am, I love how I work, now I am ready to explore.


Thank you guys for having such a wonderful community for people, I already feel welcomed.

Sounds like you jumped in head first but managed to get out in time


I´m new to DMT myself and hope we both will find what we are looking for

Welcome!

MDMA has given me a lot too, it was and still is my drug of choice, doing it once in 4-6 months with some of my best friends.

And I like the way you are working towards your first breakthrough, as it's something absolutely amazing and requires no rushing up

Welcome Hightower, and thanks for sharing your experiences. I hope the Spirit Molecule will show you what you need to see. I've never found MDMA to be very visual in years of experience/abuse, so it's interesting to hear that you had OEVs. I've had a few OEV experiences with 'molly' that I now believe to have been something else, but never from true MDMA. It's funny how each of us reacts differently.

BTW, what's a 'dub' of shrooms?

-JM

The visuals on MDMA is only at very very high doses. And I only get them a certain way, I take my initial two, then once im peaking, I drop another one. Then eat a few more during my roll. Then, I wait, I wait till I come down, then pop another two. I never really fully come back up, but that is when I smoke quite a number of bowls. And the visuals happen. And my trip is always super cheesy, clowns, giraffs, zebras, pink blue and yellow very flourecent colors. I hallucinate pretty crazy as well, stuff is always catching my eye from my peripherals. Ahah. But disappears. My mind becomes such a pleasant mess. I get lost walking down roads right down from my house. Ahah. But I just cant help but to smile.

Me and MDMA are done though, well, for the most part. Now, if I even just expect to be eating a roll, I get nausea, very sweaty, increases heartrate, and I cant eat anything. Then, my comedowns and next days are ALWAYS terrible. No afterglow anymore. Although, I have been reading reports on mixing MDMA and DMT! Sounds like something fun But for now, especially now that school has started, drugs like that I refuse to take. Even on weekends. And including any buds. DMT is my chemical of choice during school, I always found myself want to do math after a nice little trip.

A dub of muchrooms is 3.5grams. I used to be able to eat so many mushrooms. But now, just the taste and I already feel like I could start tripping. Woofta

Pure MDMA is a hexagonal colorless crystal and is very much a psychedelic. I took .3 of pure MDMA crystal once and was tunneling so vividly i could have sworn someone had dosed me! Although i was at a music festival so ninja-dosing is definitely a possibility! I can say from personal experience that mixing spice with molly is PHENOMENALLLL, the elves don't seem to mind at all!!! But seriously kids if you're gonna mess with press pills at least get a testing kit so you know what you're consuming!

Oh yeah almost forgot, if you're getting terrible hangovers, it is because your serotonin levels are depleted, so pick up some 5-htp and you can roll for dayzzzzzzzzzzz (still haven't figured out if this is a good or bad thing, but it's definitely a fun thing !)

Good to hear Hightower, all I can say is DMT is a whole different experience. I have done many substances, and once I broke through evereything changed in my life for the better. All I can say is the spirit molecule is something to revere and respect, but once you get there you will know that it is the truth. It is the "it"! I would like to know how it is when u do breakthrough. Peace be the journey!

Oh, I still have about 3 full bottle of 5-HTP laying around from the good ol' days. And I am very sensitive to amphets, so I have my marquis always handy if any do come around. But my rolling days just seem to be over. No matter how much I tried to make a hangover disappear, it just would be there, very prominently. Sipping on water all night, dose some 5-htp before going to bed, maybe even some melatonin, tylenol pm here and there. Any amphets at all, I can feel right away, and its really discouraging if my tester didnt pick it up. Now pipes really seem to be on the uprising, and I cant really test for those. But I usually can tell how clean a roll is just from reading many pillreports on top of my testing. Rolling just gets me into this, "I dont wanna do anything with my life except have fun and smoke buds and blaahhh" mindset. i need to stray away from that. Going to school for psychiatry now, so, i Have many years of schooling, I cant get into stuff like that. But I will next summer surely dose some DMT with my MDMA Mm.

Well if you ever come across "shards" as they are known on the festival circuit lol, i would highly recommend you give them a shot!!

When you say you started young , may i ask how young ?

What would one say is an appropriate age for use of Psychedelics ? and DMT in specicfic, granted it is subjective and changes from person to person, but i think we could all agree that an 11 year old is too young,for example.

What are your views?

See, when I said young, I meant merely my maturity. I was 17 at the time. But my mind was wayyy too immature, I didnt know how to respect it, and my mindset is quite a bit different. I think it should be 18 as a general. 18 should be the appropriate age. As I see most before that age may trip and not really fully know how to grasp everything it is trying to show you. But if kids to take any before hand, and have a learning experience, that is wonderful.

What do you mean, what are my views? Be a bit more specific, and I will surely share

I heard that term a few years ago, and was told shards meant crystal meth. I am assuming I was informed wrong, can you expand?