I smoked dmt maybe 15 times so far and had some very cool experiences, but this blew them all out of the water. Maybe you can tell me if this was the fabled breakthrough? Not that it matters, but I still have no idea what a breakthrough is supposed to feel like.
Anyway, I have some very brown dmt right now, it almost looks like opium. I followed the exact same procedure as before, but now it gave me brown dmt. I re-xed it multiple times, but it just stays brown. I made some enhanced leaf (no maoi), and loaded a dose containing about 50mg of spice into my little bubbler bong. I was sitting alone on my bed in a dimly lit room.
Took the first hit and held it, and things started happening. Took the second hit, after which the room started shifting and flowing. As I held it, I saw beings in my peripheral vision, my eyes were still open mind you. They were just indistinct shapes, but I clearly felt their presence and them watching me in anticipation. Took the third hit and as I held it, my room completely changed, all I saw at the end were neon-like edges of the things in the room, shining at me through the darkness.
I set my bong down just in time because then it was like someone cut the strings of my meat puppet. I felt myself collapsing and slamming down on my bed. As I was falling backward, what was left of my room shot away and the beings in it laughed. It wasn't malicious or anything, more like they chuckled to each other like "haha, I told you! he couldn't handle it anymore!". I think I must have closed my eyes as soon as I hit the bed because the next thing I see is this mandala opening and unfolding above me. Then it surrounded me, or maybe I floated through it.
I found myself in a dimension I had never seen before. The attached picture doesn't do it justice, of course, but I depicted the main things about this strange land. The background was pretty much white, or maybe filled with mist. At the top/bottom of my vision were these horizontal ripples/whirlpools, they were distorting the background, kind of sucking it into themselves, then reflecting it back distorted. Between the ripples were flowing these vertical pillars. They were made out of the same substance as the ripples, but they were much more stable, meaning they didn't really move around as the ripples did. Both the ripples and the pillars were rainbow-colored, kind of like when you spill gas on the water, or like the surface of a soap bubble. Amazing. Then I saw an enormous being floating between the pillars. It had an elongated head and dragged long tentacles behind it. It kind of looked like a jellyfish, but also like ridley Scott's alien. It didn't really react to me, but it saw me. I didn't fear it at all, I was just absolutely dumbstruck by what I was seeing.
Then I started wondering about the nature of my present situation, but it was like all my memories were sucked/distorted by the ripples, with only tiny memory shards remaining inside me. I think I was trying to remember that I smoked dmt and am actually in my room, but at the time I had no idea what I was trying to remember. Then the word "room" came to mind, and I had absolutely no idea what the word represents. Then a memory shard of "I have a body" came to me, but I also had no idea what it meant. As I was picking up these memory shards, I saw one of the ripples shoot through the 4th dimension and connect me-the observer of the trip and me-the meat puppet. At the time I had only a vague understanding of what the meat puppet is and how it relates to me. Then I started asking the questions outright: "Where am I? Who am I?". The enormous being telepathically asked me: "Why are you asking this? Does it even matter?" to which I of course had no answer
As I was coming out of it, I found myself saying out loud "holy sh**. What the fu**?!" But also: "thank you! Thank you so much!" because it really was an amazing and ecstatic experience. All aspects of it were equally amazing, but what surprised me the most were the incredibly intense open-eyed visuals I had before setting the bong down. It was just an absolutely incredible thing to experience.
Thank you for reading, what do you think about it? Have a great day
Kitisha attached the following image(s):
22.5.22.jpg
(6,072kb) downloaded 191 time(s).