I feel that something bad is to come. not for me but for all of the people i have known, i search for dmt after realizing im addicted to the feeling of JWH18 to escape my life. but cannot realize it as being something thats bad for me and that i was addicted to, i would smoke 5 cones a day or more. i wanted to find dmt to help my sickness but cannot attain it due to current social problems. but really the only limiting factor is time and space.
my grandmother is dead. she talked to me in a salvia trip when i went to the other side. i was taking salvia for a "high" like i used to for JWH and was recording the experience if you know what i mean. she wouldn't tell me this one thing... she couldn't trust me not to tell people about it but maybe that i wouldn't take it seriously enough. ive seen how reality is not really real though lately with time and place being perfect for everything and finding situations that are under my control. like life is a constant trip without actually being high off any drugs. last salvia trip i was saying aloud 3 months it will take, 3 months. until i see them again i really need to work on my life here but its so bs i cant do anything for myself i just have no motivation at home. but i work everyday in 45 degree heat without being lazy
Sir Terrence McKenna: "and what is real: is you, and your friends, and your associations, your highs, your orgasms your hopes your plans your fears... and were told. no. we're unimportant, we're peripherial. get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that. and then your a player, (but) you dont even want to play that game? (well) you want to re-claim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers: who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash thats being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world. ¿where is that at?"
"But now technology throws a curve. and the curve is that we live so long, that we figure out what a scam this is. we figure out that what your supposed to work for isn't worth having, we figure out that our politicians are buffoons, we figure out that professional scientists are reputation building gravitating weasels. we discover that all organizations are corrupted by ambition. we figure. it. out... and as you come to see that you are alienated you realise that culture is not your friend."