Preparation of the trip:- Setting: initially, comfortable bed, one candle lightning a mandala tapestry with warm colors on the wall. Before the first wave, I noticed that it would not do (+ neighbours were a bit noisy) so I changed to another comfortable bed with no light source
- I put noise-cancelling headphones on and lied down on my back
- Harmala: 100mg of extracted harmalas from Syrian rue (using Sakka tek)
- Shrooms: 4g dry Golden Teacher shrooms
- Set: I had a great day hanging out with a friend, walking in the forest, meeting diverse animals, helping insects to cross the path, overall I was really happy and in a good mood
Ingestion:- Ate the shrooms all together with harmala and some chocolate + water at 20h15
- Went to bathroom as usual after taking shrooms
- Meditated for 10min on my bed, setting my intent towards two personal questions
- Watched Youtube crap waiting for the trip
- Around 20h35, I felt tickling in my limbs and the urge to close my eyes (which is very fast considering a shroom only trip would need between 45min and 1h30 to show the first effects)
Wave 1:- The first wave was quite light but set the tone for the rest of the trip
- The visuals were gorgeous, very intricate meshes of colorful lines on a black background - so gorgeous that it sent me orgasmic shivers several times
- One idea appeared very quickly and clearly in my mind: “Now that you know the DMT realms, we’ll go to the next level”
- Overall, it felt very different from my previous shroom trips in the sense that it was very much less organic, less colorful, less warm
- No jungle-like insect buzzing
- Felt the presence of a strange entity, quite playful like a cat
- It threatened me several times, I had gory visuals with things with claws, thousands of teeth and needles hissing at me, I managed to give them the form of a cat
- Also I got bit in the leg by a vampire-like thing who was slowing me down, but I changed it into a mosquito and it left
- I went through so many scenes and don’t remember all of them but I remember:
* A scene with leather wearing rebel bikers (with a lady as a leader)
* A scene in a desert during an archeological expedition and the lady leader was yelling that we needed to hurry up or we would never make it in time (???)
* A diabolical factory grinding meat while I had orgasmic chills (which was very odd
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- Didn’t get visited by Gaia as opposed to all my other shroom trips where she showed me “the dead” during the first wave and we had a minute of respectful silence
- I got an insight during this wave, which is unusual, but I don’t remember it!!
Wave 2:- More crazy scenes
- It dawned on me that actually, something was missing: there was no shroom voice
- The playful entity told me “he isn’t around… I am the boss here this time! Let’s have fun!” in quite a threatening way
- From that point, I could feel there was a kind of fight between two things: this playful entity and the shroom which was silenced and veiled under the crazy hallucinations I had
- Is it because of the harmala combination? Or is it the effect of the initial “let’s go to the next level” thing?? Anyway, I tried to support the shroom all I could and help it and gave it all the energy I could, I don’t know if it impacted the rest of the trip though
- In any case, I got a personal insight in this one which tends to tell me that helping the shroom actually helped him to communicate with me but as opposed to the other trips where the shroom was always here and taking care of me, here, it was more of a darting in to tell me some wisdom and then leaving and giving the floor to the crazy entity
- This wave had tremendous warmth and love in it though, even though the visuals were not as warm as I was used to with shrooms
Wave 3 an subsequent:- I don’t really remember the structure after that, but I got at least 2 other waves
- Crazy stuff kept happening, the crazy entity impersonated the shroom at some point and told me “you want to see the past? Behold…” and opened a huge door but it was pitch black void behind and I could hear (see??) small elves running around giggling at me
- In the last one, I had some insights about my ego at the very beginning and then someone said “well that’s it, we’re done. So for the rest of our time, let’s have fun!”
- I got a sequence where a voice (which entity? I don't know) told me that they were filling us (as "humans"?) with I don't know what... it seemed ancient, the visual was a slimy transparent goo being poured from something up there into me. It felt weird. Not bad, not good... I could see a few green bits in the goo, I don't know what that was or why...
- After this, I made love with a completely black woman with blue neons outlining her face and body features after which a bunch of bad guys (like 3 or 4 huge bikers) threatened to beat me to a pulp so I remained immobile until they got bored and left
- I could make love with another lady which I don’t remember very well but which was more vegetal/organic
- After that, I don’t remember at all and I transitioned seamlessly into sleep
Aftermath:- I woke up at 3h15 with a “whoa what the f***?” moment
- No headache, a little cloudy
- Ate some stuff and went back to sleep at about 3h40
- When I woke up in the morning, I was still a bit foggy but overall all right
A great experience, very different from a shroom alone trip!
Overall, the trip felt very much more like a DMT trip after I exit the sharp geometric world and go to hallucinated situation world and less like a shroom trip where I have the organic buzzing, textures, visuals, warm colors and so on. I could feel or sometimes see those visuals like stuck behind a veil, trying to burst out but not managing to.
I will do it again to test whether it was because of harmala interaction (which is my initial intuition) or just my mindset or maybe the influence of my recent DMT trips. I will also try a shroom only trip to see if I can get this organic side back or not.
I had read that psilohuasca could be very very very intense so I was anticipating something really crazy (even maybe a blackout) but, in the end, nothing overwhelming for me at least (maybe 100mg harmala was too little). In terms of intensity, it felt like 5g dried shrooms where I could see the overall wave structure but not as clearly as with a 4g trip. It was nothing like my 6g trip where it was so messy that I don’t remember the waves at all and could not even go to the bathroom between the waves!
What do you guys think?