PRE-CONDITIONS(mind)Set: Tired, but calm and receptive
(physical condition) Set: Drained, but limber and mobile
Setting (location): My elevated cave on my slumber mat (upstairs in my room, on my bed).
time of day: 18:35, blue skies.
recent drug use: Evening indica concentrate evening prior. 15mg freebase DMT journey two days ago. 3-4g of rue in nightly tea.
last meal: Smoked salmon with potato salad. Finished eating at 16:30
PARTICIPANTGender: Male in this existence
body weight: 61.235kg
known sensitivities: Highly sensitive person (sensory processing sensitivity)
history of use: Experienced, but working through certain blocks.
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Freebase DMT
Dose(s): 15mg
Method of administration: Vaporized using Divine Tribe V4 Crucible on Aegis Legend mod.
EFFECTSAdministration time: T=16:35
Duration: .25hrs
First effects: Familiar tryptamine rush
Peak: Roughly 45 sec
Come down: Roughly 12 min after inhale
Baseline: Roughly 15 min after inhale
Intensity (overall): 3
Evaluation / notes: Ecstatic and wonderful
OPTIONALPleasantness: 4
Unplesantness: 1
Visual Intensity: 3
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AFTER-EFFECTSHangover: 1; slight headache. Still present.
Afterglow: 3; Receptive, loving, balanced, feeling progress has been made.
REPORTI've always said, "when 'they' want you, 'they'll' take you."
15mg two days ago was nothing like 15mg today...
I double check the weight of my doses.
The day: Worked hard and got out slightly earlier than expected. It was a smooth work day with zero hang ups. I was feeling pretty tired. I have been trying to get my fitness habits back, and in an effort to do so, have been going back to basics, and started squatting everyday again. Today was day 17. I attribute my body getting used to the load to my torpor today.
I haven't been listening to myself when it comes to the planned workout and am uncertain at the moment if that's a positive or negative thing. The plan today was to perform 5 sets of squats at 135lbs for sets of 8-10 reps, hit core, and do a little cardio. Instead, I performed 4 sets of squats at 135lbs for 8 reps per set. A gentleman asked me how much I deadlifted last week when he saw me. It was 365lbs for a set of 3. That put going heavy in my head. Then, there was a girl squatting heavy next to me, and it pumped me up even more. After completing my set at 315lbs for 3 reps, I threw a 25lb plate on each side. 365lbs came up smoothly. So I threw two 10s on each side, putting the total weight at 405lbs.
I'm a little guy. Anytime the weight is over 315lbs, my anxiety kicks in (which I usually channel into the lift). I injured my back a few years ago deadlifting and using the belt (445lbs and the belt screwed me; I usually lift raw) and have dreamed of getting near where I used to be. I've attempted 405lbs maybe twice since said injury.
I approached the bar...
Got into my stance (sumo), making sure I'm balanced and tight...
Let out a few huffs to get my breath right...
Took a deep breath, tightened everything more...
Bent over, wrapped my hands around the bar...
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And BOOM! The weight was off the ground. I barely locked it out, but it was a complete lift!
I'm back!
Stretched and called it a day at the gym after that.
Stopped by the store to get dinner and checked the mail. Knew a package had arrived with The Essential Psychedelic Guide (thanks for the recommendation DF0) and some Infinity Jars (thanks for the recommendation laggy). That put me in even better spirits.
I iced my back and lay with my lady friend for a little before taking a bath. Have to make sure I focus on physical recovery if I want to continue lifting the way and manner in which I desire.
The dose had been weighed prior to the bath, and once emerging from my healing waters, I tidied my room, and knelt at the altar to meditate. I ended up purging during the meditation. It was my body and subconscious that were the actors here, since my conscious mind was determined and ready for the upcoming experience. I had tried drinking some baking soda in water to calm my acidreflux brought on by preflight jitters, but clearly that didn't work.
Once done purging and meditating, it was time to disembark...
My intention: To reinforce balance, practice the experience, be with "you" (hyperspace entities), and to celebrate my triumph.
The entire dose was taken in in one pull...
Transfiguration transpired with OEVs manifesting as I set the mod down. I laid back and closed my eyes. I traveled through a space of fluxing structures with brilliant patterns that would invert into each other and change color as I traveled through the space. Entities were there, but I can't describe them, there was too much fanfare going on. I was getting clear messages though; "Finally, you're really with us." "Thank you for being here!" "We've been waiting awhile for you!" "Look at this!" "Check this out!" "Here's another!" For over a year, I've been experiencing high degrees of encouragement to smoalk moar, but have been stubborn, too trapped by my trepidation.
As I lay with my eyes closed, I decided to take my glasses off, simply for comfort and expecting my visions to change... wrong! The whole scene changed in structuring and was illuminated by a bright pink light that hadn't been there before. I could tell it was like a kind of prank, and I laughed loudly over it. I embraced them and they embraced me. I sent positive and healing thoughts and energies to those I know that are struggling and/or hurting. I love you all.
I don't know how long lasting this will be, but I have a lot more confidence in engaging with DMT. Could just be the afterglow. Nevertheless, tomorrow or Friday will be my first time using DMT in manner that isn't smoaking or vaping in that I will be trying out |
High Pobability of Braindamage by Creepy non tested Drugs (forced by scammer 69ron) | with DMT. I had been terribly scared, and couldn't explain it or understand it in myself. It's just part of being aware of how powerful the Spice is.
Surprise breakthroughs are always welcome. That was for damn sure a breakthrough...
Thank you reading, I hope you enjoyed. Everyone, be well.
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What if the "truth" is: the "truth" is indescernible/unknowable/nonexistent? Then the closest we get is through being true to and with ourselves.
Know thyself, nothing in excess, certainty brings insanity- Delphic Maxims
DMT always has something new to show you
Question everything... including questioning everything... There's so much I could be wrong about and have no idea...
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