Hello everyone, swims first post! swims very new to DMT and the forum.. swim will be posting swinms report of DMT(breakthrough) very soon..
swim has been experimenting with low doses for about a week. Can anyone tell swim if the anxiety/heartrace gets worse with a breakthrough dose? or does it stay the same, but not really noticed due to the OOBE?
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12:00pm.
-okay mood,swim decided to eat 2.8g's dried shrooms on a empty stomach.
swim threw 'em back with some orange juice/vitamin c pill.
Went outside to smoke a bowl like normal to relax/prepare for the onset/coming up, after
the first couple hits swim started to feel that uneasy uncomfortable feeling(stomach ach), but
quicker & more intense than ever before. The body high hit me after about 10min later,
swim began to see the trees coming towards swim & the porch sorta caving inn on swim, very
claustrophobic like. This startled swim so swim ran inside & towards my room.. everything was
melting around swim, & it felt like each foot step was sinking into the floor..everything
looked and felt so real. Once swim made it into my room, swim felt like turning the lights off,
but the coloers were still very intense, rainbow like, very swirly. More intense than any
acid visuals swim experienced thus far. swim tryed to put some music on i-tunes to relax to,
but swim couldnt find what swim was browsing for. The alphabetized band names were just so
scrambled, my screen was so blurry, swim started to hearing weird distorted noises/voices,
like generic effects straight out of a movie(indescribable). continuing trying to focus on finding a band, the next thing swim remember is Incubus just starts playing.. their
album "Fungus Among Us".. swim was like how the fuck did swim get this album, but swim liked it. If anything swim gained from this trip, its that iam a huge incubus fan, and swim used to hate them
(no reason except for swim never gave them a chance and only heard the radio songs). The music was just awsome & related to me so much during my trip, like it new what swim was feeling or
something, very hard to explain.
Then it hit me on the next level, at this point swim had lost track of time.
..just trying to go with the flow.. swim moved over to sit down in this other chair by a fan swim had blowing.
Right as swim sat down i was shrunk, everything kinda panned down with me, like something outta alice in wonderland.
After this i started to feel like i was going into a bad trip, i kept telling myself several times that night to chill, its just a trip. The feelings i felt were indescribable, and oh so real.
So swim just went with it as best as swim could, what else was i supposed to do?
So i start feeling really nauseated & like im about to pass out, i think i came pretty close, my body was totally numb, i could see my legs shaking, i just sorta
mediatated/focused my chi to stop myself from puking.
It was like the air was being sucked out of the room, and colors/sound were replacing it.
Next thing i know i have hit the peak of my trip,I started thinking to myself holy shit, what have i done, the visualls were impossible to escape and so real, i could see my arm coming out of the side of my head, my face felt like it was caving in at times, sometimes i
felt like i was cut in half, no pain, just like i was born like that. I tryed not to look at myself, my hands were very small, and sometimes parts of me would dissapear. I actually started to not be able to handle it, i was scared/out of my mind, so i tryed my best to
chill, i new it was all a trip but that didnt help, because it was real at that point.
I stripped down to my boxers to escape the sudden heat i was feeling, turned on some fans, & passed out. Or so i thought..
I couldnt escape the intense visuals, i was constantly tossing/turning in my bed, & opening/shutting my eyes, either way i still could see everything, i started to have an Out of body experience, like i was floating above myself & i saw two of me controlling the temp in the room by adjusting the fans, so i would stay alive.
swim started to get freaked out by the salvador dali/acid like visuals, swim felt totally emerged in the "shroom world", swims mind was lost/ on a journey if you will...
swim was very dissconnected, minutes were taking hours, swim just wanted it to end. The feelings/thoughts were indescribable, nothing swim had ever imangined was possible.My whole life/memories were swirling all around swim, reminding swim of that life before now.
swim began to think swim was never going to snap out of it, & that swim was gonna be stuck in the shroom world.
Next thing swim remember is hearing the beatles, then alot of demonic sounds, swim started to feel like swim had passed on into a state of mind/death state. & swim didnt care, the shrooms hit me in several waves, sometimes swim felt terrified, other times swim felt like it was what swim
wanted, to be dead/in hell, it was what was supposed to happen, it felt right, swim was dancing, laughing with everyone(their glow/spirits.(Now looking on it, swim realized that what swim experienced was a near death/re-birth.)
TOTAL EGO LOSS!!!
Then swim started to think about family & things swim loved, (my band), ect.. swim started not wanting to be so gone.
But swim was just so deep into my journey & swim couldnt fight it. swim feared that they had already found my body a vegtable.
Then swim started to hear heavenly sounds, swim could swear to you now that there is a god. swim felt it, swim lived the eternal state of mind, swim was saved from the horrors that were in front. swim started to think swim have to come out of this, and next thing swim new swim was getting
out of swims bed, & was soo happy to be alive, very euporic, swim seriously thought swim was dead.
At this point it was about 5 oclock, & was just so happy & greatful for being alive &
surving my crazy ass experience.
It seemed like a lifetime.
swim still had alot of energy & swims mind was at a point were swim was just thinking thinking thinking, still very numb, & had the body high, but swim was definatly coming down.. it felt like a normal chill acid trip, just more earthy.
swim drank a few beers still swim felt sick, & stomach achy, smoked a bowl, watched the sun come up, heard the birds, left the door open(which swim would never do! we live kinda in the ghetto) & passed out without a care.
Definatly an experience swim will never forget, & has definatly changed swims life.
Looking forward to the DMT swim just bought, swim knows the breakthrough is going to be much like this, only shorter, stranger, and hopefully swim can bring more info back, and return with a
clearer less fearful mind. swim thinks swims "okay mood" balanced out the good/evil, if swim was in a great mood, swim thinks yet still uncontrollable and intense, it would have been more freindly visions, and less of an "experiencing hell/heaven then death"... very weird..
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Can anyone tell swim if this resembles a DMT trip? swim knows the duration is different, but swim really felt like swim was shown the "matrix"/fabric behind existance.. def. one of swims sickest trips. swim thinks they were a ecudorian strain. Thanks! happy trips!
also heres some art from swims many acid trips, please tell me whatcha think guys!
Jerry Garcia!
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