thats a wonderful thread
tons could be said about this but Ill try not to be too long (edit: mission half-failed
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correct me if im wrong but I dont think stan grof meant that it is as linear as its implied in your post, that the psychedelic experiences go necessarily from personal experience and down to perinatal issues.. Also, remember that we dont have to necessarily take his theory as a base for the discussion. I do find it his work fascinating but dont necessarily agree with everything.
In any case. I dont think that psychedelics is necessarily related to inner growth, though it can be a wonderful tool if thats your intention. Another thing to mention is that inner growth doesnt stop "when one resolved his traumas/hang-ups". The struggle for being ever more conscious is endless. Just as a small example, just like everybody has nails that ocasionaly need to be cut, so does every one have an ego, which, as an inherent characteristic, always tries to unsustainably grow and 'take over' more than it's share, so to say... So we have to always keep a watch, because it is a dynamic, morphing process. In just the same way, the effects that psychedelics unfold will reflect/enhance/distort/depend on all sorts of aspects and events and experiences and thoughts and emotions (and hence, two trips are never the same.. or "you never step twice in the same river" ).
As for my long term goal... Well, its not a very definite goal, like "I will use psychedelics to make some nice music" or "till I get enlightened" or whatever, but more like, it's a tool that helps regulating my never-ending process of inner development. Just like we cant look at the back of our heads, its a blindspot, we also have tons of blindspots in different senses, emotional, perceptualy, intellectually, etc. So psychedelics help me see things from a different perspective, "triangulating reality" (whoever said this was spot-on). So maybe at some point it can be used for looking at childhood issues, at another time is getting artistic inspiration, at another is relearning to become humble, another is for fun, another one is for philosophical/spiritual questioning, and thousands of other examples.
I dont know if I will ever say "Ok I will never take psychedelics again", but surely there were and will be different-lenght breaks throughout life. Even if I stop taking them, it wont be because I think I know it all or am fully perfect or anything of the sort..
As for the progress, I think it was great.. I have changed many habits that I dont think were good, I have completely how and what I eat, and the way to relate to my body, and am definitely healthier than before.. I think my relationship with my family and others has vastly improved and my appreciation of life too, and plenty of other things. Many of these changes were very sudden, right after some strong psychedelic trip, while others were more gradual, over the years. Its impossible to know "what if" it wasnt for the psychedelics, but I do think that, to whatever extent, but they did help me