So, I did it again...but today was different. Very different...
12" Bridgesii, 9" Kimura's Giant--both 3-4" Diameter. Frozen, PC'd w/ Vinegar 10 X 4 pulls, decanted one week. Made roughly 20 oz. I took somewhere around 2/3 of the brew. Froze the rest...it was too syrupy this go around--even the frat boy chug couldn't overcome the spirit. I Purged HARD at the 40 min. mark (first time for everything I guess)...found the zone at 1111 on 1/11. Peaked at 111 on 111. Serious synchronicity...as though the universe were winking at me. I come down now as I write this. I needed to make it clear...before I forgot it all.
It started with a emotional purging. Buckets of hot salty tears clarified so much of the stuff I had held onto far longer than necessary. My girlfriend turned on the music, and it took me away...I can honestly say I feel like I cleaned out the gutters this go around. It was odd to allow someone to comfort me, but she did. She is a healer--that much is clear.
Lots of skeletons, and a reminder of a few I secretly hoarded away in the catacombs of my mind. I think I'll keep them there for safe keeping...sometimes we have to remember where we came from. I know the music can take me back there anytime now.
From there my girlfriend and I spent some time at the dog park with our 2 pups. So much love and happiness...it was the first time I had seen my husky sprint in a long time. I also connected with her rescue, who doesn't quite trust men. Well, now she at least trusts me, and I feel an overwhelming sense of relief for this. She's gone through a lot and I just want to give her some love and life back.
Watching my pup run made me SOOOOO happy...I really can't explain it in words. It was nice to finally give up the control I always had over her out of fear of losing her. I see now that she's happy and wants to be with us. Huskies sometimes give you the sense that they don't care...today I got to see into her heart and I have a much clearer perspective now. And of course, since I was peaking here...the visuals, depths, colors, and overall HD vibrancy was unreal. Life as a moving painting.
The craziest part of this trip was the clarity. I combined it with a bit of coffee and cannabis...WOW! What a combination for SP. I was energized, clear, connected, awake, happy, anxiety free, and the list just goes on and on. In short, I felt free...very child like. This is what I hope to bring back with me this time. Life is but a dream...
From there I begged to be taken to the golf course. I play this game professionally, and must say being with it and nature on SP was powerful. I played with a nice gentlemen, but was too lost in the experience to really engage him. Although my "mask" was able to communicate...watching it do so made me sick to my stomach. After that, I just kind of got lost out there--reflecting on who I had become in this environment. Then...the weather turned, but as life would have it--that's about when I started feeling the back side of the experience. So we wrapped it up, I called the girlfriend...and just watched the wind dance with the grass and the trees until she showed up. Amazing what we miss when our minds aren't opened up as much.
Once my girlfriend got me back home the body load had caught up...but the mind was still surging. We threw on AVATAR since we haven't watched it in 10 years. What a cool movie...so many good messages, so many conflicting ones as a retired military grunt. I found the contrast more game like than ever though...not as serious as my projections had twisted it up to be previously.
All in all, I walk out of this dimension...with a new set of senses. I feel blessed and thankful. I hope something of this report helps others. This combination of plants was near perfect for me...and upping the dosage seems pointless.
My final thought...as I head towards the dream within the dream..."I TOTALLY understand why people would microdose this." Only to be interrupted by the wisdom of life..."How could you possibly appreciate this experience if you did that?".
MUCH LOVE,
D2J
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