I just returned back to this side! Laughing, with tears of joy running down my face. The difference between of what I experienced yesterday and today... there's literally a universe of a difference. I have seen what I wanted to see and I feel I need to write it down before the memory fades...
But let's start from the beginning. As mentioned above I chose to try a higher dosage. I weighed out 2x 100g and went into the garden, where the bong and chair still waited since yesterday evening. It was a bit chilly outside, but otherwise clear skies. I sat down, put on my headphones on and prepared the first bowl.
I slowly emptied the bowl, inhaled, held it in for as long as I could (the changa isn't harsh at all) and by the time I exhaled, I felt it coming in. I knew already that this time will be more intense than yesterday. So I put the pipe down, leaned back and closed my eyes.
Many of you know that what comes next is impossible to put into words. My description will probably be more of a caveman drawing compared to what I actually saw, but I will give my best. The whole experience is so complex, one would need to write a thick book in order to describe all the little details.
Again I saw a sea of patterns appearing in front of me. Only this time these patterns where much brighter, more vivid, started to flow all over me, penetrating me (in a nonsexual way) until I was part of them. That's when I got slightly overwhelmed for a moment, so I decided to open my eyes.
What I saw was so beautiful, but yet so different from how the world around me looked like, before I closed my eyes. The bushes around me were so transformed, they looked so alien. I felt the bushes presence like never before. I always had the idea that plants are conscious of their surroundings, but in that moment I could actually feel them being aware of me. They formed a perfect round dome around me. Nothing about them seemed chaotic anymore. Every leave and every stem followed a certain geometric order of a seemingly neverending fractal order, leaving and opening above me, through which I could see the sky and the stars. I sensed the bushes trying to shield me from the outside world, while trying to keep me in their middle at the same time. I felt that I wasn't allowed to go, but at the same time I felt protected.
So I decided close my eyes again, thinking that I won't need to smoke the second bowl tonight, because what I saw then was truly otherworldly. The patterns were gone and I found myself inside of something that must have been a bridge of a giant spaceship. I sensed other beings around, but I could only see faint outlines of humanoid looking beings in the distance. They seemed to either not take notice of my arrival or they didn't care much. The ship had a giant panorama window and I could see a huge planet. Everything inside the ship looked like it was made of silver chrome, which predominantly reflected light blue, but also other colors. The ship was designed in a way that there were no corners or edges. Everything was elegantly rounded and curvy. The planet outside looked habitable...
There was something happening in the background that I need to mention. I felt a felt a female presence throughout the whole experience. I felt physically hugged and mentally reassured that I was in a safe place.
...I couldn't stop looking at everything, trying to memorize it, while being in awe of what I saw. Then slowly the ship dissolved into patterns and I knew it'll be over soon. Shortly after I realized that I was back, I opened my eyes. Everything still looked so beautiful, but the dome was gone. The bushes had taken on their familiar shapes again, yet still looked amazing. I felt joy and started laughing. It took a while till I got up and went back into the house.
This was a truly mind bending experience and I am grateful, that I was allowed to see what I saw tonight.
These impressions are all quite still fresh. I might have forgotten to mention something and I hope that what I described makes any sense, as I still feel the afterglow. I will allow for the experience to sink in and integrate. But I can't wait to go back.
One side note, I feel I need to mention. I listened to
this album during the experience. I am not sure how much influence music has on the experience, but this was the perfect soundtrack for my adventure. I wonder if I would have seen the same things while listening to something else?
...no need to worry...