So, I started using DMT about a week ago, but on my first trip, it didn't "let me in". The DMT told me that I had so learn something important about myself until it considered me worthy and that it would be very unfriendly to me if I smoked a breakthrough dose anyway. It took me some time until I found out what it meant. During my last trips with LSD, I made the mistake that I tried to analyze old traumas and to scratch old wounds, just because this made me feel intelligent. But it's a bad intention to feel bad just to feel smart. After realizing this, the DMT said that this had actually been the problem, but that I had to wait a bit and integrate before the first breakthrough. So I'm waiting now for at least a month, journaling and meditating :-)

Hello Lyvene and welcome to the Nexus

Isn't it fascinating how the molecule analyzes and assesses us (could be an internal or external function, but regardless is a powerful one).

Tell us a little more as to what you uncovered with that LSD trip. I think it's good to realize the misplaced intent in doing something to feel smart. It seems to benefit us more to be x than to feel x. It sounds like it gave you some stuff to work on, which is good. That means growth. You just have to be willing to put the work in.

Thank you for introducing yourself.

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You are trying to attempt DMT “intelligently”.
There are safe and healthy steps you are taking - very good!
… but in the same time. This IS a sign of trying to control it.

DMT spoke to you…
Breakthrough DMT trips are often connected to being totally broken.
So, if DMT really guided you - Like Specifically!
Then you are really self-aware.
Like all your instincts will crawl to hold the “reality”.

You need to learn how to “give up AND live”.
Go to the pool. Float on the water.
Make your friend make waves, or something.
Do it long enough, so you will remember feeling of “No Control, but Safety”.

Then,
do DMT dosage, enough for you to Need a Sitter.
Normally, that is a bad idea, but if this is really what DMT told you, then…
You need to experience Abyss.

And no, DMT will not hurt you.
You are already self-focus enough, to decrypt DMT trip as message, not reality.
Just make sure, your sitter is caring for you.

Also!
Dim room = deep trip.
Lighted room = softer trip, or “spit perception”.
Sometimes lighted room can be worse.

There are 2 important messages you need to have established, with your sitter.
“It is good” and “I need you”
Easy ones are to hold his/her ankle (or something) for “stay”.
Soft hand on foot (or something) for “I’m good”.

DMT has no “quick enough” kill trippers.

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Hello and welcome!

This resonates with me so much! I've waited a good 10 months for my tea experneice. Last time I did it was around december 2020, and it told me I need to better myself and clean up my life for good, if I was to work with the molecule.

Even though the time was long, I feel like I'm ready and am gonna go take a journey this week Gonna be all pruod and dandy when I arrive, because I've truly worked my pants off this year.

Glad you meditate, awesome stuff! Do you by any chance do physical exercise, maybe clean up your diet or care for sleep hygiene?

Thanks for all your answers :-)

The trip had told me to wait and integrate at least for a month and I'm now in week 3 of doing this. It was an interesting process, which started with accepting that I'm a new person now and that I don't have to chase my past.
In this first week, I experienced quite a lot of anxiety while thinking about tripping on dmt. The next two weeks were about finding out where I'm standing right now in terms of personality development. Aaand @just612 nailed it: It's about physical exercise. I have asperger's syndrome, which is why it is hard for me to feel my body. I live in my brain and in my thoughts, so sports has always been hard and very humiliating at school :-P It's like there is no connection between my body and my brain. Last week, I became very frustrated trying to meditate sitting in a cross legged position. The next day, I smoked weed and I could suddenly feel my body and I made yoga, which was awesome. I could finally find a good position for meditation. All because I stopped thinking and started feeling. I want to learn to do this without the weed.
Since yesterday, my fear of dmt is completely gone, but I have to wait for another week until the dmt allows me to smoke it again. I will use it to prepare my setting and smoking technique.