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I had my “Soul-based” experiences, and some “vivid dreams”.
I like to imagine it meaning something - just to feel better about myself.
But in the end I grow to ignore it.
So, I'm actually just generic and being curious.

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Would you be willing to share a bit about your "soul-based" experiences and some of those "vivid dreams?"

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(I fixed this post, as it was full of drunk garbage)



I have memory of being followed by a red-black creature, at age of 9.
Weeks, of something in the corner of my eyes, looking back.
Hungry.
Angry.
And somehow bigger every day.

I was getting scared.
That fear make me see the night, as a fog that gets denser.
And I "knew" that if I let it go even denser, something will enter me and devour.
Something that only I can see...

So I did something weird.
I let it do it!
But, in my mind I thought: "If I make IT stronger, I must be able to make it weak".
So as it entered my body. Overwhelming cold started to overpower me.
And then I told him: "Now you are in my trap"...

I felt weird.
Like something changed.
Like I felt "whole" - "completed" in some way.

I explained this experience, to myself, as getting mixed with my own mental demon.
Accepting being one with it and finding peace.

...
Ages later I felt like I’m getting “split”.
Like some part of me is “growing out”.
Like bipolar depression, but maybe more alien.
...

While I was growing up I tried to do some meditations.
I imagined different places. Created world in my mind. Found nothingness and calm.
And even found a river of light, that I sometimes can see, when I just close my eyes.

At some point I tried to see people.

Let say age 16:
There was a girl that was stuck in my mind.
I fought thinking about her, in my meditations, but eventual I let it go.
I just let the imagination run on its own… and I saw things. Like place similar to the home, she later invited me to.

What scared me, was that much later she described what I saw (let say age 19).
Her mother saw me, following her...
I apparently was covered in the blackish aura, or fog.
But, her mother first meet me much later (age 18 ).
And, in meditation I was just observing. Not controlling...

Sometime later I tried to contact “my blackish self”.
I think, I saw him couple of times.
Protecting me and trying to team up with me.
But soon later, he just went away…

// I usually get really insecure writing things like this. “Stupid” is more like it.