Hi Everyone...
So I would love to share with everyone my experience of the first time smoking DMT. It was not my first time with psychedelics I have had many beautiful mushroom trips and 2 very healing ayahuasca ceremonies, but nothing can even come close or compare to my DMT experience.
Let me begin. It was decided between my friend and I that we would smoke DMT that night, she had done it previously and I was game so it was decided. There would be 4 of us together me, my friend her husband and her brother, we are all friends and have known each other for many years....
We all smoked the first time and I had very beautiful eye open visions of never ending fractals and geometric shapes, but it lasted no longer than 3 minutes, same happened to my friend's husband (it was also his first time)
We decided to smoke again this time just three of us: myself, the brother and the husband. I decided to take my beast yogi breath and took one in right from the bottom of my lungs. I watched as the room turned into almost a cartoon image of transparent spheres, my body collapsed back into the sofa and the last thing I remember seeing was the never ending fractals.
So the next time I become 'aware' I am only consciousness, I don't have any recollection of being myself or that I smoked DMT, I absolutely did not know I had a body or where I was. The only thing 'I' was aware of was an implosion or melting of the moment, colours mainly melting infinitely into each other.
Then out of nowhere I start to see faces, the faces of my friend and her husband. They appear as if they are trying to push through some invisible stretchy plastic and their faces are grey and without much definition. I start to hear their voices and it's as if we are synched in our moment trying to pull ourselves out of the melting moment. I feel like my friend's husband is in charge of pulling us out of the moment and into this new dimension where we are purely light or electrical. I can see more features and body parts start to appear on both of them as they become full of transparent fibres with colourful lights sparking through them. My friend's husband is encouraging me telling me not to give up that we can make it into this dimension. It feels like a game at this stage and we all ask each other if there is anything we need, and a sense comes over me that we have lived our lives together as friends only to live this moment where we meet in another dimension. I feel the years of knowing each other wash over me and a familiarity between them that is so hard to describe with words.
It seems finally that our light bodies are now fully present in this new dimension and I meet my friend on a soul level, I feel her energy and it's so beautiful and calm and steady, I know she has me. Then I turn to her husband, and I can hear in my head my friend's voice saying "This is going to be deep"
I turn and hold his hand and look him in the eyes and I say to him "It's you" he then looks deep into my eyes and he realises that I see him, not his now earthly self. His eyes start to shine and as I continue to stare the realisation washes over me that we have known each over for centuries and that I did not recognise him, not in this life and not in many lives past. The realisation continues as it feels like I have 'missed' him so many times and he has always every time recognised me in every life and every time he waited for me. He sees the look of anguish in my eyes and I can feel myself repeating over and over and over again that I am sorry so sorry that I missed him. I say I am sorry again and I feel it in my heart. His eyes tell me that he knows I am truly sorry and he begins to cry.
I have so many questions for him and at this stage it feels like our conversation goes lightning fast telepathically conveying information to each other. I asked him why he didn't tell me who he was and he explained I remember hearing the name of my friend, his wife, and then just a knowing and a feeling of deep peace contentment and absolute pure pure love. The last thing I remember him saying to me was "You were going to wait another century before recognising me, how could you not recognise me I gave you the stars"
I felt in this moment entirely not human and I could physically feel that I was a multi dimensional being in space with ultimate endless possibilities, I could feel the vastness of time/space and feel my presence in galaxies and universes like it was normal. I felt like a naughty fairy or elf and I was ready to have some fun in my new celestial playground.
I then realised that my eyes were open, and I could see the living room, I could see the grid of the earth shining in front of me and still had a physical feeling of being in space, and then I said something out loud and the spell was completely broken...I was back.
I had distorted vision for at least 5 minutes and I physically felt something come back into my body and it shivered up my spine I had to wiggle back into my physical shape.
Now apparently my friend who was the sitter this time was quite worried about me during my trip... my body got very stiff, I had lock jaw and I threw up, and she wasn't sure if I was breathing. Her husband had somehow noticed her distress and came to help us...while tripping I imagine.
Sooo the weird thing is that I am now left with this CRAZY crazy crazy feeling of having known my friend's husband (also my friend for many years) since basically the beginning of time. I feel like he gave me something so special in that moment which was knowing who I am, feeling true true love and finding a missing piece of my soul. I have never ever felt the way I still feel now in my whole life, I feel in a way aligned, confident, strong, infinite, full to overflowing of love, and a deep deep peace that sits in my solar plexus making me warm and fuzzy inside.
Has anyone else ever had an experience like this? It is possible for one person to guide your trip and pull you into another dimension?
My heart tells me that he also had this experience....of meeting me, but I am too scared ask him if he did, regardless of the answer.
Thank you for reading my story cosmic people