Today i decided i want to do dmt for the second time.
The first time was with a friend where i had 35mg Syrian rue under the tongue and 50 mg dmt in changa. That first time was really cool, i was very calm and i heard the hess that grew up louder and louder and then closed my eyes and saw not-from-this-world colors and some unrecognisable script (it seemed like some Arabic font by the way) and then i felt an entity behind me, i could see it wearing a black mantle, then it put it's face upon mine and i could see a skull!! that made me freak out and jump from my chair in terror, i felt i needed to puke and went to the bathroom, at the first two steps i understood that i'm seeing a very strange scene! and i never made it to the bathroom! I was overwhelmed with what i was seeing, geometric shapes projecting from me on the walls and everything was like it was covered in some shiny lamination!!
I was astonished and overwhelmed with everything, but was scared and not ready to take the second hit. I need to say that i was with a friend/sitter that introduced me to the compound, and it's important to say that it was my first time ever using psychedelics!!! A hell of a start ha!
My friend (a great soul) told me that i needed to produce the compound by myself if i wanted to do it again (he is a really great guy that read a lot and had a good experience) so he taught me how to do it and exposed me to this lovely website and other resources on the internet! so i started by extracting alkaloids from Syrian rue, next i got some mimosa and extracted dmt. My friend had also given me a machine that he had made, and so i was ready to go.
between the first time and the second time (2 months) i already had experienced LSD and San Pedro! I was eager to learn and develop. While on 2 tabs LSD, with no experience, i decided to smoke a joint (i smoked for 20 years non stop!), and it hit me real hard! The acid showed me how bad was the hash for me and how paranoid it made me, out of some arrogant imagination, i stepped into thoughts loop that made me almost loose my mind! I then understood that hash was really not for me and i quit it for the first time in 20 years, i had a rough two weeks of no sleep, but managed to quit, a month later i wanted to try smoking hash again, but while i was not on any psychedelic! It wasn't long that the paranoia came back, and i then understood that i was done with hash for ever!!
two weeks later i went on a hiking trip with friends and we took 250mg San Pedro. San Pedro is a very sympathetic being, it can take you very deep and it can keep you on the surface! You are the one who decide! But, it also will give you hints! So as we were near the end of the trip, we took a break to smoke some cigarette, but, i just couldn't find the rolling papers! we didn't smoke and i just didn't notice the hint and continued the trip without anymore thoughts about the subject!
Later on i was thinking that i needed to quit smoking, and set my intensions to that on my next dmt trip! and today, about 10 days after the hiking trip, i decided to try my product, but as scared i am of dmt, i decided i am going to only do 15mg by vaporising... So after a day of preparations, maintaining positive thoughts all the day, cleaning my place and my car, having lunch with my family, taking care of my plants in the garden, I took 43mg Syrian rue under the tongue, and meditated for about half an hour before doing the 15mg dmt. As it was my first time vaporising the alkaloids with the machine, i couldn't do it right, and it had taken my breath trying to inhale and hold, i couldn't tell if there were vapour or not, because i had the lights turned off, it was very hard, but at the end i managed to melt the alkaloids before inhaling and then put the lighter down the machine and managed to get the vapour! I was already out of breath and i held my breath for about 15 seconds, until i started hearing the hess getting louder, and my vision turned to HD! But i was very tired of holding my breath!
My heart started to race madly! I felt it was going to get out from my chest ( i have no health issues as far as i know, just had some tests few days ago)!! I got very scared!! and decided not to do the 20mg that i put aside in case i wanted more!!
After this experience, i immediately got into the nexus chat room, to describe my cardiovascular side effect, and there it was, a pure soul waiting for my call, and i got an answer!! (I forgot about my intention of quitting smoking) The helper told me that i maybe need to exercise, and boom i remembered about my intention to quit smoking!
I really am not getting into psychedelics for fun or for visuals! All i want is to develop my soul and spirituality and learn more about this infinite world!
Although i didn't break through to hyperspace, but i'm really grateful for this lesson, and i took the decision, i just had my last cigarette!! I know we are all one and i know you support me in this because you are me and i am you, and i'm grateful to you for your support and unconditioned love.
Tomorrow i will start exercising and no more smoking!

Special thanks to the tiger that helped out in this!
Love you all