Thank you that is very kind. I am seemingly all better. I would love to answer this question, not sure I can but i'll try.
It was amazing for a hour + and then became physically alarming. I first saw a bunch of people who looked like... older arab mystics. I remembered this well it was an old mushroom trip. The mystics were spinning electrified plates on their fingers while sitting cross legged in a circle. Suddenly I was one those people spinning my own multiple spinning electrified disks. I was there. Fully immersed. My skin was brown and I could move my arms. This was an old trip I hoped to see again with a few twists I was now a different person. I became one of the people I observed in this old strong shroom trip.
Then I saw an origami like object unfolding that eventually turned into rooms i could see all from above them. I saw funny looking aliens... beings who had like 6 arms and 3 faces and they were all in their rooms telling me hysterical jokes. One said this is how we get freaky. And from within their suction cup hands came like cords that reached to multiple other beings and this went on and on in some weird alien orgy.
Then I accidently sat on my remote and the tv came on and a video came on that was... not my first or last choice for a trip back round. At this point my pipe turned in to a chocolate gun and something said shoot yourself. This directly tied to the messed up video I was unable to stop. Suddenly I could feel the pipe was indeed a chocolate gun , even with open eyes yup im holding a chocolate gun! And I was unable to not place it against my skull and pull the trigger. Now it sprayed me with chocolate it was all very alarming and funny. Then something very bizarre happened the video that was playing was replaced by a more suitable video that I could now see and hear while the real video playing was muted. Seems like the new video was superimposed on my screen. All coming from memory it was a perfect replay even had his voice and it was real audio not internal dialog. And I got the sort of internal message "dont watch that other video watch this." I knew the speech and everything this video was something that meant a great deal to me.
Then I was thrown into a golden room of indescribable beauty. Some god like and other looking beings were singing in the crackling voice I hear from time to time. Then suddenly the sound started coming from all directions but not at the same time and I could feel the sound hit me like a physical thing and pleasurable experience. Yet there was more than even what i wrote much more, and while none of this seems particularly spiritual it had those moments within all this whimsy but without a ton of context I couldn't begin to convey it. At this point i realized a lot of time has gone by. Later I was able to check my video history get a good idea of just how much from taking the 45mg and the sort of end of the brunt of the trip it was over an hour. I love DMT but I obviously need a break will need a good break and analyze how i let that happen.
FranLover wrote:Wishing you a fast recovery! Its a terrible thing to ocurr. Btw, what did you see and feel?