Dear guys and gals,
in this post I will briefly introduce myself and the level of my experience and at the same time, I would like to ask your opinion on our experiences with the combo of LSD+MDMA+DMT. So me and my gf have moderate psychedelic experience. So far, we have had LSD, MDMA less than 10 times each with MDMA taking care not to overdo it (with the exception of what follows). Ketamine approx. three times each in sub 50mg doses. 2-CB once or twice and DMT say five times each. We dont do it for fun, we do it for the "investigation of the inner world", getting to and resolving subconscious crap and the like.
General info: we react to LSD differently than most people. For us the max. dose is a half a tab, which makes both of us agitated, no visuals, just really tense. Most people report feeling super-smart on LSD, for us having a half a tab means we forget the start of the sentence before we finish it. Mushrooms also dont work for us at all (I once ingested tea made of 15g of valhalla truffles and felt as if I only had a half a beer). If anybody has any info why some people react like this to LSD/shrooms, I would really appreciate some explanation. We test are substances so we know for sure its not NBOM-E or some other crap.
Enter candyflipping: once we discovered this combo, we both always liked it, for the easy resolution of painful memories, trauma, whatever you want to call it. We would take a 1/6 tab of LSD, wait 90 minutes, then 100 mgs of MDMA, wait for it to kick in and then start a dialogue about currently pressing emotional issues. Even this low dose of LSD made a difference in the ability to express thoughts and eased the MDMA comedown dramatically.
Enter DMT: the first time of LSD+MDMA+DMT was as described above and 90 minutes into the MDMA, my gf took small tokes for a total of 2 - 3 hours with 5 -10 minutes in between tokes. We were inexperienced back then, so we burned a lot of the material. Regardless, she was in a state of total love, the most beatutiful state that she ever felt. Even with a small toke, she had strong OEVs where she could not see anything even right before her eyes. She meditates a lot and even seven days after this, she was able to enter a englightenment-like state via meditation combined with recalling the memory of this trip.
The second time she tried this tri-combo was 6 weeks later. Same mode of action, same material. Instead of visuals/love she basically did not react to DMT much (barely any visuals) and emotions wise, the DMT got her only anxious, despite MDMA.
The third times she tried was another 6 weeks later. This time, apart from the anxiety she was getting a consistent message from the tokes that "it is OK to kill yourself". No visuals, just this nasty message.
One might say that we should have waited a longer time than 6 weeks and that this could have an effect on the DMT influence. It could be true, but I first tried this tri-combo approx. 5 months after my previous candyflipping and I had the exact same experience as her second one - no love, no trip, just anxiety and kind of fear.
Any thoughts on why DMT causes anxiety in this setting or what we can do to get the effects of the first trip are highly appreciated.
Kind regards.