ROA:- 6gr dried Cambodian, chewed
- some rapé several times (bonbinsana and mapacho)
- some hours of fasting, A spinach, carrot and fruit large smoothie.
- Some half joint of changa later onThe callingIt was a boring Saturday home, I was supposed to finish some designs for my studies, so I took one big shroom from a bag of Cambodians I got from a friend. I use it as microdosing, it helps me with creative work and anxiety, I also take Lucy sometimes in small doses, nothing epic.
This time, while I was on the computer, talking to myself, I hear in my head “you are ready” (translated into English) . You know the drill about voices, you don´t get to hear a Morgan Freeman voice, or an ancient british Merlin the wizard voice… it´s your own voice, you think it was you producing that thought… but you know it wasn´t.
So, I decided to go for a higher dose mushroom ceremony, it was Saturday afternoon anyway and I had no plans.
PreparationSo I went to the kitchen and weighted for 5gr. Later on the trip, I was kind of possessed and emptied the remaining of the shroom bag, so I guess I was around 6gr.
I have to say, my previous high dose experiences had been with DMT, changa and recently a few ayahuasca, bufo and kambo retreats that changed my hole perspective on psychedelics and taught me the importance of the ritual, or at least the idea of bad spirit hunging around and using stupid-uncautious people on phychedelics as an entry to this realm.
I prepared my house for a ritual, burn some palo santo and inciense, put my nice mandala mantel on the sofa table and a mandala blanket on the TV (which is an ugly black box). Burned some candles, sniff some rape, turn on the heater, put my cat´s bed close to the sofa so she could stay with me and protect me… put some nice music (Estas Tonne´s quiet guitar) and then meditate a little bit and set the intentions.
The tripI didn´t get crazy dmt visuals or contacted entities (in a direct, visual way).
I got a nice euphoria and laughter kind of mood (my back against the floor watching the furniture from the bottom up), also played a little bit with my cristals and tibetan bowls. The visuals felt like the visuals I get when I take DMT and open my eyes, but not that super intense. Later on, while meditating, there were a few times when I felt some sort of kundalini.
Kundalini?I´m no expert in kundalini, some people describe it as a rush of energy from the top of the head. In my case it was not in the head, mostly on my stomach, I had spasms and accelerated breathing, very intense and contracting breathing, sort of what monkeys and orangutans do when talking to each other… it´s like really quick and short alternating inhalations and exhalations. (real kundalini awakening involves increased energy and all sort of problems I didn´t experience later on)
It wasn´t the first time I felt this, the first one was during an ayahuasca ceremony (after taking Bufo Toad that same day) where I laughed like crazy for 3 hours, non-stop, and later felt these energy on my stomach and the monkey breathing.
This time was different though, the ceremony lasted about 6 hours, I didn´t have any physical discomfort, but I would go to the bathroom a lot (to pee) and drink a lot of water.
About the 3 third time I had these kundalini, the energy and ryhtim of the breathing became kind of sexual
, and I started having some lascivious thoughts… nothing over the table, but really nice. For all the medical specialist on the forum, there wasn´t any orgasm or ejaculation. I wonder if this is what tantric practices are all about… couldn´t say, some further research is to be done.
I need to point out that I´d been restraining myself, trying to accumulate energy on the lower chakras and use it for the creative work (like Steve Jobs, Tesla, etc). Something entheogens had really help me achieving… you know, you become and hyperspace astronaut and also a fapstronaut… “gone where no man has gone before”
Failed ChangaAfter the 3 kundalinis, the last being even more physically demanding, I felt kind of tired in a good way (like after good acrobatic sex I guess).
I should have called it a night, but we humans are greedy little creatures, so I smoked half a joint of changa I had left… It´s not my favorite ROA, I had trouble smoking, if you don’t take 3 hard hits and take too long… you are not having a breakthrough, that´s why I prefer vaping DMT on a vaping device, vape is cooler than smoke, far softer on the throat.
Anyway, it wasn´t a breakthrough but it felt good anyway…
InsightAt the end of the trip, I was starving so I went to the kitchen to cook and omelette. I had a clear insight on a personal problem that had been in my mind for the last 3 months, a great-clear perspective of “why” I was so angry about it. It really helped to move on with my life. Unfortunately, no I have new negative thoughts to fill the gap… neverending list of problems…
ConclusionIt was my first high dose mushroom experience and II found it extremely close to Ayahuasca, I think I contacted some really nice spirits or personal guides. It wasn´t just crazy visuals, there were some beautiful lessons on this trip, like you are being taking care of.
I´m currently in the process of growing the shrooms myself, with some friends. Our first bath are Mexicana and Thai. Later the second bath will be Mazatec and Ecuador.
Any recommendations for the most “spiritual strains”?I´m planning on having high dose ceremonies and increasing the doses, approaching it as I would do with an Ayahuasca retreat, considering maybe the 30gr doses Kilindi Iyi speaks about, although taking some steps before getting that high.
Next ceremony might be 8-10gr of cubensis.
PD: I later took a micro amount while trying to study… and hit me really hard. I stopped working and started to meditate, I got the feeling these entities are teaching me breathing exercises to improve my meditation… … these are very nice spirits
… they kind of like the idea of me starting to grow shrooms, that means we will be contacting again, hopefully.
"...after five seconds I was no longer a marxist, no longer a materialist, no longer a rationalist.
It killed those things, it cauterized them..."Terrence McKenna