If you’re into horror movies there’s an older one called event horizon that may or may not still be on Netflix. In the movie when the guy crosses over and comes back he says “It shows you things... horrible things.” “The dark inside me from the other place. I won’t go back there. I won’t.” Pretty sure the film was inspired by unpleasant dmt journeys.
I’m guessing your first trip was pleasant enough to warrant a return lol. Not me. Four bongs hits without any experience and I wanted to go to the hospital. Pretty sure I was dying. Closing my eyes made me fall out of my head. Screw that and the guys that kept passing me the glass, this was only ganja. It was recommended to start with that before moving on to the more revealing plants, I think I said I love you for the first time in my life that night, what a nightmare