Hi everyone, I'm new here, im 20 y/o and i'm joining this comunity because I've had my first experience with 5-Meo-Dmt (and first time trying any type of drug/psychedelic) 2 weeks ago and I'm very curious about what i experienced and still experiencing, and i want to learn more about all of this and other peoples experiences.

Buckle up
This is mine

So this is what went down. My uncle told me and my family that he was going to do an awakening ritual with 5-meo-dmt in an open field with some other people (he was the guide/shaman),he said that if we weren't happy with our life or wanted to "learn the truth" that we should do it but that there was no going back, our life would change completely.
I said f*ck yes i really needed a new start, heal myself and start living (I've suffered from depression for about 5 years, but always was stuck because im 2 much of an introvert)
So everyone that was there that day was done with there ritual and it was my turn, my uncle asked me what i wanted to work on so i simply said "on myself and stop having to deal with other peoples problems) he said ok and took out a little glass pipe and the 5-meo-dmt (75mg) he told me to inhale and exhale completely a few times and on the third exhale he heated the pipe and i inhaled the smoke for about 8 seconds and then he covered my mouth and nose.
3 seconds passed and i was fighting with myself inside, one side was screaming let go and the other was telling me to stay, i couldnt control anything, in those 3 seconds 3 giant pulses hit me making my vision go black, i stopped feeling my body and i was feeling like i was exhaling a brown heavy and dirty glowing smoke for an eternity, out of no where i saw myself standing up and aligning myself with what i thought was my soul, at tge same time while i was standing up i was feeling that i was falling and when i got back to my soul i hit rock bottom there was a wierd background with pink, white and yellow waves. After another eternity of me fighting myself i start to wake up, i immediately stand up and my uncle told me to look at the sun, i could see silver pulses coming out of it, my eyes were wide open and it didnt birn, my body was super heavy and my senses are extremely enhanced, for the first seconds i could see extremly good without my glasses,it was a beautiful day in a field, everything felt so connected and the colors were so vivid and nice, after like 10 minutes of me touching the grass and hearing "abuelo's pancho" singing i finaly could stand up and emedietly went for an orange, best orange ive tasted in my life, while the first bite my eyes closed and i (not kidding) could see how every little balloon thingy exploded in my mouth.
I was seen purple everywhere and was feeling really good, i was feeling genuinely happy, but i felt like i was missing something, it felt like "the other side" was calling me so i told my uncle that i wanted to wait a few months to analize what was happening to me and see if i could do it again " he told me that it was rare to see someone wanting to do it again after only 30 mins after coming back, he said that i was ready for the second go, this time there was no fighting or visuals, i felt like i legit died and was now everything and everyone, i had no limits and no feelings i "was" (if that makes any sense) after my eternity there i came back and i needed water thrown all over me, best feeling ever, my aunt hugged me and said "that was beautiful, your soul is priceless, live". I layed stomach down and she started to tell ne to let it all out and started pressing my back, instantly i started to cry and insult like I've never done in public, i started to lose myself in the middle of this, to me it felt like 5 minuts, but i was around 40 mins crying on the floor (lol) when i gained conscious again my name no longer felt mine, it felt like i didnt need one and didnt want one, after i started smiling and laughing like never before and i proceeded to walk to the open field i got stung by bees twice and it felt amazing.
Night 1 (after ritual): i slept like ive never slept in my life, 10pm to 2pm.
Night 2: i started seen people with my eyes closed and saw their auras, i was seeing patterns with the flower of life every time i closed my eyes
Night 3: holy moly this night was super intense, i entered what ive been told was "the void" about 6 times with a whole lot of mandalas and wierd stuff, in one of these trips, with my eyes closed i was looking at the roof of my room and a heavy hand pounded my chest, i looked to my side and it was my dad looking at me (he also did thr ritual and the day after he looked at me and said "last night i was having these wierd trips and in the last one i was dyeing and you saved me" first time i saw him crying and k was shocked we had that type of "telepathic" conection)


In the last few days and nights i was still tripping here and there, one night my astro body arms came out of me and did a wierd movement, now when i replicate that movement it feels really good.
Some noises trigger something in my brain and i fell the same way i felt when i was coming back from the 5-meo-dmt trips.
And one night i had a full trip and at one point i was (wierd) moving around the place the ritual was done while i could see myself cloned twice, one was sitting in the same place i was in the second ritual (the one with 0 visuals) and the other one a few feets infront watching my soul coming out of my body of the other me that was starting to leave this reality (hard to explane)


Sorry I got carried away writing, so this is mostly what i've experienced, hope its usefull in any way and i hope someone can kinda guide me or try to explane all this. Thanks in advanced!

P.s. :sorry for bad english, soy de Argentina y se me da mas el español
P.s. 2 :i cant remember my feeling before the rituals, i legit feel reborn