Hello,

I am RoosterConrad and I'll get straight to the point. I want to be a member so I have people to talk to about DMT, mainly. I also like to talk about cats, dogs, pets in general. Guitars, video games, eating healthy/sustainable and lucid dreaming/meditation. The philosophies of ethics, morality and aesthetics. Lots of other stuff too

I once hit a bong with about two pencil erasers worth of mid-grade mmj. At the time this was enough to get me high, and high it got me. I then proceed to play a video game for what felt like a while. Mind you this game lent itself to drugs and hallucinogenics but eventually I noticed my game character in the same spot in a way that could only have been possible if the character hadn't moved. Only about 10 minutes had passed yet i clearly recalled having a grand time playing. I also noticed I wasn't high anymore but thought little of it and continued playing the game. A few hours later I went to smoke another bowl and realized I had never smoked the first bowl.

I once got really high again on mmj while playing video games. It was one of those strange 'something's watching' me highs. I thought to myself, "I hope a spider doesn't come down form the ceiling while im immersed in my game." Sure enough within no more than a minute a spider spun its web until it was two fingers from my face at eye level. I being the person I am moved back and left spider alone with threats of being caught in a glass and released outside if spider didn't return to the ceiling. Spider listened to my threats and, as quickly as it appeared, spider vanished. For some reason, I again found myself thinking, "I hope that spider doesn't come back down." Spider did and the same situation unfolded.
You wouldn't believe it if it wasn't true. And its too dull and boring to be made up. It really happened.

My first ego death was in a dream. My second ego death was from a meditation that almost became a dream. Though I prefer to meditate, to meditate and dream, to dream.

My first DMT trip happened just under a decade ago. I had obtained 30mg from a questionable but good natured source and did my research. I concluded that it was dmt decided to smoke it with the sandwich method using a similar amount of mmj as mentioned in the stories above. I then prepared my mind and spirit for what could be dmt, or what could be something completely different. Not easy to do but it was far easier for me then. I measured out the 15mg (thinking i was going to save 15mg for someone else) I don't remember two separate hits but I did both of the 15mg measurements and was not let down for a moment. I really enjoyed how immediate it was and the feeling of pressure on the body. It was everything I had hoped for and I never left my own reality. I had HD vision, a euphoria that seemed other worldly and I felt connected to an infinite concept of higher beings. I had only done my research on safety and authenticity of the substance I had no idea what to expect other than having done a small amount of cupies (less than a gram). I instinctively smoked it with the sandwich method because I had smoked thc concentrate like that before. I was alone and in a the most familiar place I could be. My next experiences with dmt would not come around till about a week ago. Many years form my first two hits.

I would like to think of DMT as a way to supplement lucid dreaming. Since dreaming takes hours and DMT takes minutes. I also want to experience the breakthrough for the possible time skewing nature of it all. My latest experiences with DMT have been less than enjoyable, to say the least. I believe anxiety is holding me back. Using the same method as I did all those years ago I get a different experience altogether. I have to admit smoking thc lately gives me anxiety and I realize that is probably what is happening to me. But I don't remember the darkness. In my most recent trips there has been colors, fractals, cable snakes and the feelings of shadowy ominous figures in all the objects around me. All of this I remember but it was against a light background. In these recent trips the backdrop is dark. Also I find myself wondering why? Its really hard to even remember them and there is a general disorientation and confusion during them. Almost like waking up form a deep sleep and being able to see things but the brain is not connecting with the images. Having said that I also never loose touch with being in the same place. One thing I noticed on this last attempt was distinct auditory hallucinations that sounded like twinkling, there were other more expected auditory hallucinations but these twinkling sounds were something else and new to my DMT experiences. Although in retrospect I do feel like I might have heard these same sounds in the auditory hallucinations one might get from the delirium of being really sick with a fever. Also the euphoria is almost no existent and I seem to have little control over my body, other than to be able to move my head and rub myself with my hands. There is a clamminess and warm sensation sometimes. I also feel slightly nauseous after, nothing big though.

To be clear every time I have tried dmt i have been completely aware that I was in the same room, spot and chair. Everytime in the same place in similar conditions, the primary difference being the time that has lapsed and the experiences i have gone through.

Anyways I know this is similar for a lot of people and that I have written a lot. Hope some enjoy reading this.

I wonder if the spice I have now is more 2-Me-DMT than my first two hits of DMT; since the experience has been very tactile and auditory.

Also it might have been the lighting but my cat who is my biggest and best fan wouldn't look at me the same or slow blink at me for some time after the trips. What does cat see, or is cat not seeing?