I find myself in a very stresfull time due to various things in my life.
I can clearly see the big problem that's actually causing all of these feelings, it is nothing extremely bad or difficult to overcome, it is actually a very easy task to solve.
It is basically an incredibly difficult final i have to attend in a few days.

Yet, this stimuli is capable of triggering a variety of feelings and thoughts, some subtle, some more vivid, some related, but mostrly, unrelated.

During these nights i experienced a lot of nightmares, surprisingly based on things that usually have a very low-threat feeling and arousal in my everyday life, but due to this altered sressed state of mind manage to become pretty strong.

Just a few minutes a go, i was lying in bed, thinking on how all of thiss stress was reflecting on my everyday perception of things, expecially how everything i think of or experiment just sounded dull and boring, where instead i usually would have looked forward these things.

All of a sudden, i started to feel a some kind of """""energy""""" in my chest, something that wanted to rip it apart and fluctuate in the air, moving away from my percieved identity, desiring to move away, to flee in a quiet and "thoughtless" way from what i am as a identity full of memories and schemes.

I really percieved istintively this "energy", or better "entity", as a part of my identity without the memories i actually have, some sort of purer "self", or for using a term i don't lile, a more "inner" and "true" self.

I stated to analyze this feeling, and it surprised me "it" wanted to "be expressed" from my chest instead of my mouth, or my mind, or my physical body.
The reason for it was because it just wanted to come out without beign influenced by my media of expression (voice, body language, mind elaboration), it just wanted to "exit" and "manifest itself" in its purity.

I started letting it go, trying to just let it be, and it faded away leaving behind a sudden realization for me, that really shook my spine:

You perception of who you are, your identity, depends on what you percieve consciously, but there is a lot more hiding behind your capacity of conscious elaboration, grounded in some sort of abstract space in your mind, bound to apparently forgotten memories and emotions.

This could be called "subconscious", but this term just activate those association with Freud's work, which is, in my opinion, not the best key of interpetationa and mapping of the "below threshold" neurological and cognitive activity of the mind.

This was the first time ever in my life i experienced this kind of feeling, i've already had experiences and "proofs" of below-consciousness activity from my mind, but never within these emotional feelings of alienation from my actual identity, in particular, i never automatically represented this experience in form of another entity, usually it was always following some sort of stream of consciousness.

I'm a very "scientific" kind of person, so this is my feelings and interpetation of this strange experience, but i would like to know if some of you have ever experienced something similar, in which situation, and how you reacted.