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Hello fellow life cosmonauts. My story begins after a bad accident. I sustained nerve damage. My doctor said it would take up to a year to fully recover and that I may feel numbness for the rest of my life. By some miracle of synchronicity, I came across an article about lion's mane mushroom helping regenerate nerves in rats. I tried it and the recovery was immediate and complete. Doctor was happy this worked for me and sent me along (I was hoping he would look into it more to help other patients - oh well).

This experience made me question a lot of things. What else could nature have to offer that I was unaware of? Continuing from my medicinal mushroom experience, I learned about Paul Stamets and I ended watching this video where he details his first psychedelic experience where magical mushrooms healed his chronic stutter. Needless to say, I eventually ended up on the shroomery site. Further reading lead to spores which led to a fruiting monotub in suburbia.

Then came my first magic mushroom experience. I could not have a sitter because I'm an isolated soul (as far as I know) in my local suburbia when it comes to these things, but I tried to get everything else right - or as right as possible. I followed old Terence's advice and took a high dose (six dried grams of homegrown cubensis)...

I felt LOVE. Pure LOVE. It was immense, all-powerful, LOVE. I understood that there was no true evil, only broken hearts and bodies reacting to a difficult environment in an inadequate way. I clearly understood that anything that I thought was bad about myself was just what I was and that I could simply accept it now that I knew that love permeated the entire universe down to every atom in my being (I hope this makes some sense, I don't know how else to explain this fundamental and strong revelation that nature gifted me). It was the most profound experience of my life. After this experience I became centered and felt true internal peace. I began to appreciate the beauty in this world. Sunlight bouncing off someones hair would fill me with amazement and joy and the realization of how lucky I was to be able to appreciate such moments. I started listening to my wife, truly listening to her. I fell in love with her again. I spent more time with my children, marveling at every thing they did. Their favorite storyteller at night used to be their mom, but it became me; The old me would want to avoid reading stories to the kids and watch some mind numbing crap on TV instead, the new me felt that being asked to read a story (instead of mommy) was one of the greatest achievements in my life. I'm humbled by all this and am deeply aware that I could not have achieved any of it on my own, and that I was somehow lucky enough to become open to nature's gifts.

I've continued my relation with the mushroom teacher. I ingest this gift of nature a few times a year as part of my ongoing spiritual growth. I am so happy to have found this which I consider a true sacrament and am deeply saddened that it is persecuted by our society. I'm also saddened that I cannot simply share these miracles with the people I share my life with.

This human need to share what happens to us in life has motivated me to come out of the internet psychedelic closet (yet still remain anonymous). I chose dmt-nexus as the place to go from lurker to poster since I love the attitude and love shown in this forum. Other forums are great, but this is my favorite. So here I am, a humbled newbie willing to learn, and (hopefully) one day, to help.

Beautiful story my friend, thank you for sharing it.

I had a breakthrough DMT experience that was very similar to your psilocybin story. I broke through to unbelievable fractals of primary colors. I saw people/beings embracing, holding their children. And I felt the most ecstatic feeling of pure love I've ever experienced. Just pure love flowing into my consciousness. It was incredible.

If you've read about DMT trip reports, you know this isn't always the case. You're always rolling the dice when you take psychedelics. But if you have a good set and setting, that's the best place to start.

Welcome

Thanks for your warm welcome and for sharing InAwe. I've read some trip reports on the gift that is smoked DMT. It is interesting how sometimes different entheogens can intersect, yet they each seem to have their own personality.

One exception I've noticed (in my limimited experience) is Salvia. I've chewed and smoked my homegrown salvia and typically end in an odd, dimensionless world where the people I know seem like annoying false constructs. I still experience benefits from salvia, but so far, they are from a peaceful subtle afterglow introspection, and not from revelations during the trip itself.

I have not had the priviledge of succesfully smoking DMT yet, only had a couple of failed attempts using my own materials as a newbie. When/if I succeed, and if by some cosmic lucky miracle I come across the loving beings you describe, and if I'm not totally speechless overcome with awe, I'll give them your regards ("Hey, someone in cyberspace told me about you loving beings!".

Very inspiring story


I believe that being a good father is a huge achievement. Your kids are lucky!

Just wanted to say I really enjoyed reading this. Thank you for sharing.

Thanks. It is kind of cool to read this again.

I did get to succeed with DMT extraction. My issue was in the DMT acetate to DMT free base step in Q21Q21's TEK using heat (my understanding is that at the right temperature the acetic acid can evaporate leaving freebase behind). This did not work for me (maybe because my temp was not dialed in), but all the other TEKs I've done worked well - and I've gone through most of them.

Also, I've learned that marijuana can help heal bones. I wish I had known this during my accident (which also included broken bones). I should have gotten Lion's mane and marijuana from the doctor, instead I got opiates. Thankfully I found this community that is helping society overcome a seriously dangerous and dysfunctional addiction to drug laws.

Oh, and the kids now ask me to meditate with them