It's going on six years that I have read through this forum. This community has provided me with an invaluable source of knowledge through my journeys. There is a wide array of people contributing to the community coming from all walks of life. I've never posted or contributed to the discussion, but I have spent an inordinate amount of time learning here.
My journey has been long, hard, but absolutely rewarding. I spent many years not confident and dissatisfied with who I was. It led me to try and fix my problems by masking them, and consequently spent a good number of years in addiction. It's a path that leads to degradation of the mind, body, and soul. Eventually I came to a decisive point where I knew I had to change or risk losing this gift of life. When I was 17 I tried mushrooms, and it redefined the world around me. It opened my eyes to the beauty of the world, and it primed me for my future route into a normal life.
Psychedelics, especially mescaline, gave me a way to look at my problems and see them from an outside perspective. They have been a tool to see the things I cant, and consequently change the things out of alignment in my life. I have become a confident and much happier person due to my experiences.
The severe hardships I have suffered have only helped me grow as a person. I have seen the darkest depths, and can empathize with a hurting soul.
Psychedelics aren't a shortcut for me, but they have been an absolutely invaluable tool of change. I would not be who I am today without them.
Compared to other psychedelics, such as mescaline or P. Cubensis, I am relatively new to DMT. I've broken through maybe ten times, and spent 40 or so sessions out in nature with a friend. The utter beauty of the experience has been overwhelming. It consistently takes me to a place and experience so far removed from myself that it leaves me in awe. I've worked with syrian rue and B. Caapi, and I believe I will find that working with DMT containing plants and Caapi is the most beneficial route for me. DMT alone rockets me out there, but there isn't a defining thread that links it together. I feel like Caapi will provide the guiding hand I need to work with these sacraments in a beneficial way.
Hopefully this wasn't too long. I have read through these forums for years and felt I should speak up. There are many wonderful people on this forum. As my life settles down and I can devote more time to this community, I hope to be able to contribute in the future here.
May the light always guide you in all you do.
(I'd like to change my username if possible. I made it six years ago, and it is time to change the identity)