Hello everybody on the nexus
Im 26 years old and have been taking psycoactive substances for many years cannabis, mushrooms lsd, mdma and pretty much try anything once adequate research has been done. I have only recently became aware of the powerfull effects of DMT and decided to start doing some research, this site has been a great help in finding relevant information and i would like to thank everyone for their collective knowledge on the subject. It has been of great help.
I have always been quite a sceptical person and i feel that has sometimes hindered me in my quest for knowlege and well being. The last few years have been hard battling with depression and anxiety so i was a little nervous to take the plunge into the unknown.
I have to say i dont regret it one bit. First 2 attempts did not result in breakthrough, due to bad smoking method (tinfoil on the bottom of a 2 liter bottle) and burning it. After a bit more reaserch i decided to try my oil rig for cannabis concentrates and this worked a treat. im now able to breakthrough with ease. The first full breakthough i have to say was one of the most lifechanging events i have experianced for a long time. I was extremly anxious going into it, probably not the best time but by this point my anxiety had reached levels where it was never ending. As soon as i broke through my fears were aleviated the entitys asured my that all my bad feelings were only that, bad feelings. This seemed to resonate very strongly within me. I was shown how my closed mindedness was doing me more harm than good and that i needed to be more positive and try to spread that positivity, Also that i need to start taking much better care of myself physicly and emotianly. Like i said earlier i have always been a very sceptical person but what i experianced and felt has completely changed my outlook on life and reality as we precive it, i now want to take a much more spiritual aproach to life.
As of writing this my first breakthrough was 3 days ago. Since then i have had the most amazing sense of wellbeing and happieness, i feel way less insignificant than i used to and am ready to start making the positive changes in my life to live more happily. Free from all the built up negativity i have carried around for so long.
My report of my first trip is not so clear i dont remember a lot of it as it was quite overwelming at the time. i also think that most of it was spent trying to heal some of the represed emotianal damage i have been doing to myself over the years.
I am now ready to accept that maybe everything is not as it seems on the surface and itching to do more exploring when needed. i Look forward to hopfully becoming part of the community and will contribute where i can, though my spelling and knack for putting my thoughts into words sometimes comes across as ramblings.
Anyway i will leave it there, just a breif(ish) introduction to my backround. and a Big warm hello to everybody
