First of all, how many of you are undercover narks? (if that's a word still used and not an archaic relic of P. K. Dick's times) My uneducated estimate would be over three quarters.

However, risks need to be taken for far less interesting things on a daily basis. Thus I have decided to register here in hopes of finding unconventional knowledge, understanding and a sort of fulfilment my life seems to be lacking. And to find a source for a good clone (or strain) of Phalaris; don't resent my such not-so esoteric goals.

Now to the part of which I have a somewhat limited knowledge, or at least wish so, for it is a writing subject I'm not all too keen on. Myself.

Age matters they say. In my 20 years of life I've gained only a limited knowledge of life, more so theoretical than practical, and even that seems rather threadbare compared to some of my peers. This is something I am set to change.

For quite a while I was staunchly anti-drug, well, at least against those drugs the society forbids. This, I must admit, seems to be a sign of a closed-minded character. Or, perhaps, a sign of an effective upbringing. I have yet to decide. My experience with various substances is... meagre. Alcohol. Nicotine. Diethyl ether (accidentally and in a low dose). Always close the reagent bottle!

My plans for the future include small quantities of cannabis and DMT. A somewhat unconventional sequence, from what I've gathered so far. From nothing to everything. Perhaps it would be wiser to start small and "work one's way up". With a reputation of an utterly conventional personality, coupled by a not so many "connections" (not to mention the desire to do everything myself) this could prove time-consuming. But the idea of going out and buying something of interest repulses me. I need to procure it all myself! The attitude of this community resonates with me in this aspect.

For over a year now I've been fascinated by the world of substances I once considered vile. Characteristically, however, I approached this matter in a cowardly, over-cautious manner; by studying its effects, properties and also the culture surrounding it. By late summer I intend to embark on a very first DMT voyage.

What else can I write?

I am studying biotechnology - whether this is the right path to thread I can't tell. In spite of this uncertainty, I intend to follow this through. Choosing this field of studies was a tough decision; abandoning it would mean another round of choosing and deciding. Decisions and the uncertainty of their consequences. Abominable concepts.

Other than that I don't have much to say. I'm slowly making traditional bows (I have a nice yew branch drying currently). Recently I took up reading again. PKD's work is interesting. A Scanner Darkly especially. There is a paragraph in that book I like. Arctor realises one day that...

That life had been one without excitement, with no adventure. It had been too safe. All the elements that made it up were right there before his eyes, and nothing new could ever be expected. It was like, he had once thought, a little plastic boat that would sail on forever, without incident, until it finally sank, which would be a secret relief to all.

With your possible curiosity satisfied, I plan on satisfying mine. In time I might return at least a bit of what this site has given me so far.

I'm glad to have wandered here. Keep it up.