Greetings all,

Great to finally join the community, I've been skimming over post the past couple years but it isn't until now that I've had a renewed interest in serious psychedelic exploration and cultivation. Over the course of the past couple years I've tripped hundreds of times including on shrooms, LSD, 4-aco-dmt, 25c-nbome, 25b-nbome, 2ce, 2cb, salvia, DMT and DPT. I have also consumed copious amounts of MDMA and cannabis, along with smaller amounts of cocaine, codine and xanax.
Before psychedelics I was a rather nihilistic rationalist, that found all his answers in science and philosophy. Thankfully for him however I stumbled upon psychedelics in college, and my first experinces blew anything I thought I ever new out of the water. My first experience was with what I now know to be 4 aco dmt, but what was sold to us as "mushroom capsules". The experience was and still is the best of my life and completely renewed my love for nature and life, something which I had lost in puberty. It also led me to chase the joy and amazement through rather heavy use of psychedelics (4-aco-dmt mostly, but also LSD, cubies, and some other RC see top). As my fascination with psychedelics increased so did the doses, until eventually 32mg of 4-aco-dmt led me to ego loss, something which I had been strifing for since I heard of the notion, but something which I was far from ready for (although I don't think anyone actually can be). I was convinced I died, I didn't know who I was, and any knowledge I though I previously held was shown to be false in a rather ruthless way, I was shown the light and the ultimate knowledge (everything is one), but as I came down I could sense I was gradually less able to comprehend it. It left me completely shattered (Everything I every thought I knew was false) and feeling rather isolated (how do you talk about something like this when everyone around you is clueless?).
The experience left me even more driven for finding answers through the use of drugs, with me at some times tripping for days straight, alternating on different drugs to beat tolerance. My cannabis use also steeply increased and I started taking coke and MDMA every weekend, along with xanax and codine on several occasions. At some point I even took DPT, which was perhaps the strangest trip of my entire life (basically my body was stuck completely fragmented like a cubist painting, with no other visuals for hours) but that is for another thread. This heavy drug use continued for months until DMT saved me from my horrible habits. On lower doses DMT was intially rather fun and novel compared to LSD and shrooms who's visuals became predicatable, but a high breakthrough dose changed everything.
The come up was rather similair to breakthrough doses on mushrooms, but at the end I was in a different physical universe. Basically I was inside a room what I can best describe as the empty House M.D operating room with the observation window on one side. Inside this room was someone completely crazy, foaming mouth, swining arms, screaming and running around like crazy. This crazy person/beings was me, or rather I was inside this crazy person, I had no control over the movements, or the thoughs yet I could feel muscles move, and the movement of air over my skin, and the weight of gravity on my feet, most of all I could feel this beings thoughts and fear yet I was not fearful myself. On the other side of the window was three or four beings observing me, like it was some sort of experiment or a mental hospital. All of the sudden something grab my hat, and I freaked out and went to grab it. Now in actuallity I was wearing my favorite hat (which I always wear when tripping) so this was really freaky, but on top of that, one of the beings observing me stated "well that f*cker has reach" when I grabbed my hat back. Considering I am really tall this made the trip very personal. When I came down I decribed my experience to my friends that were sitting beside me, and appearantly I didn't move or make a sound the entire time I was tripping. In the subsequent days, dreams and thinking about the trip made it clear to me that continuing such heavy drug use would have me end up like that, crazy running around in a metal hospital, and I decided to take a break from drug use entirely.
Drug use has however given me much valuable insight into society, art, literature, and myself so recently I've decided to start smoking weed/dabbing again, and I went hunting for p. Semicleata on which I had mellow trips with good friends a couple times. I have ordered some salvia (plain leaf, no more 20-50x as previous times) which I hopefully wil be here soon, and I intend on starting a P. mexicana truffle and Peruvian torch grow soon. Basically I intend to stay away from the artificial stuff, grow or hunt ethogens myself, and use them in a more ritualistic manner. I also intend to stay away from DMT (I can't get pure stuff anyways), at least in the near future, and I honestly I don't know if I ever want to go that far ever again anyways.
So on that note cheers,
Dabstronaut (yes I love dabs)

I am very happy to see that your life was turned around so quickly and suddenly by one trip, I once got so wrapped up in my research and work that I almost completely neglected to eat for months on end, once my work finally came to fruition the trip said, "eat" however I already knew that I was wasting and was barely sustaining myself so I felt somewhat cheated, but oh well. The spice really hits close to home doesn't it? I know people like you who have had one powerful experience that made them never want to go back, but I believe everyone who has gone will go back at some point.


And yes stay away from those synthetic drugs as much as you can! LSD is an exception in this category though based on everything I know about it if pure is one of those 'safe' drugs, but don't swear them off forever heavens no! These drugs (for me at least) have no spiritual value and can be used as an actual break from reality, unlike the naturally occurring psychedelics that always unlocks so many questions that I must explore and answer!

Doing a DMT purification is incredibly simple my dear friend, just use that search bar! Stick to dabs, they're cheaper I love me some dabs, mmm


Best of luck to you,


Sincerely

DMT has this funny little way of showing you something true about yourself weather you want it or not. I guess I should say, it has this way of helping (or forcing) you to understand something.

These experiences, I always thought were negative. I'd adapt and change my behavior based on my experiences. And at one point, I thought I was out of my freaking mind taking advice from beings I met while on a powerful psychedelic voyage off the edge of reality. It struck me though, that these beings must be part of myself. That what they had to share with me was indeed really for my own well being.

The visuals and experiences may blow your mind in a way comparable to swallowing a bullet; but what really sets DMT apart is the lucid way you stare into infinite knowledge. More than you could understand in 100 lifetimes, yet you forget all but what's useful to you at this point in life.

How was this experience useful to you? I ask myself this question after every DMT trip. If I can't answer it then maybe I'm not ready to go back. Actually 'how is/was this useful?' is something I ask myself about alot of things. I find it helps me understand the purpose behind my actions. Give it a try

Your research experience reminds me of frakenstein (great read about science and obsession, nothing like the popular portrail check it out). I think in most cases tripping just brings up your unconscious, and the beings you meet are manifestations of your unconsciousness rather than other beings that exist on their own (feel free to disagree). Basically most times things come to light that you deep down already know even if it is shown to you by what appears to be other beings. That said I'm rather inexperienced when it comes to the DMT realm.

I do think synthetics have some value especially recreationally (4 aco dmt especially), but it is the easiness of digestion and dosing that makes them rather easy to abuse as a break from reality. For me at least I am a lot more conscious about the dosage and consequence when eating a quarter of shrooms/ eating bitter cacti vs swallowing a little bit of powder/swallowing a strip, not to mention the nausea and purging at higher doses which I think is central to the soul cleansing experience. DMT for obvious reasons I don't think is possible to abuse. As far as new ideas and creative thoughts to explore, cannabis/dabs does that for me without all the distracting visuals.

Regarding going back there I am lying to myself when I say I never will.

Cheers and stay dabbed.

I agree, psychedelic experiences are explorations of the self, and even if the results are uncomfortable it ks always a good thing. For this reason I don't consider any of my trips however horrible or devastating at the time a bad thing. It is when you get your ego shattered to frequently and you loose track of who you are in the real world that it becomes a bad thing. This is what DMT made me realise and what made me a lot more cautious about the use of psychedelics. You're method of solving the reasons why before going back prevents this in part. My past self was going back as a way of resolving questions that came up in past trips, but I was only greeted with more questions, which in turn gave me reason to go back again.

Cheers for this insight