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Hey mati, welcome to the nexus.

Here are some ideas that may help you out with your future trips.

When we are under the influence of powerful psychedelics such as acid or mushrooms or ayahuasca we pick up on things that are either in us or around us, that otherwise we don't consciously notice. The things you feel concerning your friends may be things you are worried about subconsciously - social anxieties and things like that. Perhaps subconsciously you are worried about whether they are really your friends, how much you can really trust them, or how much they are just looking out for themselves, or similar things. For whatever reason it seems you cannot entirely relax with them around.

It's also possible that you feel they are somehow not entirely sincere with you for whatever reason and in whatever way and you are picking up on that.

It's possible that they don't know how to respond to you being in this altered state. Are they also tripping at the same time? Sometimes if people are sober while you are tripping it causes a strange dissonance and some people don't like it at all. I'm one of those, I cannot trip and have a good experience if I have sober people around me. It makes me feel uneasy and like everyone is looking at me.

Even if they are tripping it still might make you uneasy if you are not on the same wavelength at that particular moment. This doesn't mean anything concerning the friendship, just that your mind would rather go elsewhere with the trip, than interact with these people at the time. Again, this has happened to me lots of times and I find I can only really trip comfortably with very very few people around and better even with none at all.

You might want to try to do a solo trip, with no one around and see how that goes. Plan your trip, find a nice place where no one will disturb you and you have everything you need close by and go for it. Perhaps your experience will be much easier and you can go exactly where you want to and need to go.

Also concerning dose, sometimes there are intermediate dose-ranges that are uncomfortable because you're not quite in a state of total dissolution but also not quite in the "it's-just-a-buzz" state either. This dose range usually makes me have worse experiences than if I dosed a bit higher or lower.

Take a look at the link in my signature (open hyperspace traveler handbook) for more information on how to plan a trip and take care of yourself.

For the future, please no more references to buying or selling controled substances. Thanks.