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Hello,

I do not want to post my full name on this website or even just my first name so you can call me ''wilson the volley ball''. I am a young man from Canada full of great intentions and ideas. I am currently attending college in biotechnology (which I love). I grew up with great parents in a very french part of Quebec and moved to a bilingual province at a young age. I was always interested in science and, I want to say unfortunately, drugs. All my life I felt like I was looking for something real, something worth spending my time for. But I couldn't find what it was. It was like an unsatisfied feeling in my head, a place I had reserved for something great. At least, I knew where to look for, the big questions: where are we from, how did we arrived here and why are we here? I self-educated myself on astronomy, reason, spirituality and perception of reality. But I couldn't find it! at the same time, I was dealing with depression, drugs and I was starting to be sucked into a very dark world. Basically, I couldn't find something to hold on for, and I was only going on a very twisted path. So one day I did the unthinkable, something that no man should attempt, simply because it is against its nature. I wanted to erase my life, I wasn't happy with the environment i was put in, I wanted to die. I tried to kill myself...but I failed because someone found me and I was rushed to the hospital. It is only at that point that I thought to myself: What if I had died? And not only the usual questions that one would be asking like what would my family would of said at my funeral, what about that girl that I made her day by being at her side when she needed someone to cheer her up or that guy who bullied me at the time? No, I was thinking about where would have I been? Was I just going to disappear of time and space? Was I going to a heaven, a place where I could infinitely live in pure joy or was it something else that was waiting for me?

That is when I started really looking into ''life after death'' on a scientific ground and not just on a philosophical one. I then stumbled on this mysterious and not-so-popular chemical that some claimed to be a key to other dimensions, a teacher of life or what others simply described as the doorway to the other side. I was referring to DMT (more precisely : N,N-Dimethyltryptamine). While trying to finish high-school, I did a lot of researches on the subject and the more I was reading, the more I knew that this chemical, this DMT, was what I was waiting to discover, this mysterious molecule that was going to fill this reserved space in my head. I became so obsessed with it and ended up gathering all the things I needed to be able to finally have some in my hands (and I have to say, it was a unique moment to be able to contemplate the key of the universe, this priceless salt in those hands).

As much as I wanted to try it, I kept asking myself; am I ready for this, is this going to change my life for ever and if so, is it really going to help me? Finally, one night, I decided that it was time. I had my girlfriend sitting next to me on my bed with my small dog and as for me, I was sitting on the bed too, lighter on a hand, pipe on the other. DMT is typically smoked with a glass pipe to help it evaporate. It is well known for its harshness and a lot of people have a hard time inhaling a good quantity. Knowing that, I was scared to fail the inhalation. Surprisingly, I succeeded! I heard high pitched sounds and my body felt enormously pressurized. I only had the time to lay down and I disappeared in this void, this place where there was nothing, it was dark. Suddenly, A woman approached me out of nowhere, she was blue with a bright light on her head. She looked at me but didn't said a word. Then I realized what appeared to be fire in the shapes of Mexican designs pouring out of me. This was my first experience with DMT and I could not believe what was happening. I opened my eyes and took a peak at my girlfriend and dog. They honestly looked bored. I saw my girlfriend looking at the time on her phone. It was really bizarre because I was freaking out in my head and the walls were everywhere at the same time, moving, shifting shapes but my body was so relaxed. The woman, who I couldn't see with my eyes open made a gesture with her hand to catch my attention. I instantly closed my eyes and saw what she was doing. She wanted me to focus on the light she had on her head. It was hard for me to pay attention because I couldn't believe what was happening. I was finally able to set my mind on the light and instantly, I was filled with an incredible feeling of peace and relief. It was the most incredible feeling and memorable moment I had ever experienced. Then soon after, she (the woman) slowly faded away and me, I slowly came back to my senses. I could not say a word. I could still feel the sensation and the peace. Approximately ten minutes later, one word came out of my mouth : woah...

Now since then, I have had many more encounters with DMT and I feel I am experienced enough to be able to guide some people trough these experience. With the countless times I smoked DMT, I was able to develop a stable reasoning and multiple hypothesis about the mysterious ways that this chemical can work on humans. I still don't know what my goals are toward the DMT universe but I know the nexus is a place for me, a place I will respect, love and help it grow in any good ways possible. I also know that DMT has a lot of door that are still awaiting to be explored if I feel the need to and I also know that I don't know everything about it. I am just one explorer out of countless others, trying to discover the truth, being pushed by human curiosity. Together we can create the future. One where we find answers to our questions, one where together, we can change the world, create new ideas and who knows, maybe we will find the truth. Could it be possible?

Also, welcome to everyone!

Welcome

A very well written report; great read.

The mystery to which we are bound.

Once again, welcome.

Wow. Great introduction stardust-gaurdian, and welcome to the nexus. Your positive attitude is gooing to fit right in here.

Welcome and thanks stardust-guardian.
May we meet again in the future.

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