Hi All!
With all my heart, Im very happy to finally becoming a member here. I´v been around as a "viewer" sense 2008.
At that time was I very interested in this unik spice but did not have the courage to try it out. I told myself, after I´v learned to meditate and have done so almost everyday for at least a year, then I will be ready! This was what my inner voice was telling me. As I see it, our bodys tells us when we are ready.
The years past and I got more and more interested in spirituality, the shrooms quickly became my personal favorite TOOL. I guess, when we see natures plant medicines as tools and not drugs, thats when we starting to become ready for the deeper journeys
My great desire to find answers and to explore became bigger and bigger as the years passed by.
After smoking DMT for the very first time early last year (2013), I quickly understood so much more about what people (you guys) where writing about. We can not understand what we have yet not experienced right. I had also at this point been meditating for almost two years.
My first experience was very strange, just like I came to a huge spaceship / machine room like hospital or something like it. The same feeling as when you have passed out for a while and wake up at a hospital not knowing where the hell you are or who you are. I was fully aware of my surroundings in the "real world", like there was two different dimensions at the same time and I could choose where I wanted to be. No questions about where I wanted to be though
It felt just like there was lots entities around me and when I started to think about it or what it was, one of them came to me and did something with my head and suddenly it changed my thoughts. Then it went back to the others again, like they all where dancing in harmony. All this was so new and strange to me, it felt like they where controlling me and I was just a patient at a mental hospital not knowing anything at all. It also felt like they wanted me to understand something, my thoughts got stuck again and the same thing happened again. I could not tell if they had faces, in some strange way, it felt like they were made โโup of tubes. It did last intense for around 10 min and was completely gone after 20.
The strong feeling I had after the trip was kind of like a complete knowledge of what happens when we die. I quickly felt like this really is the truth about everything, like all I thought before was just a lie. This did not scare me at all though, it felt like a HUGE relief! This was DMT crystals. In the same way did I also feel that there was so much more to get out of it, like I didn´t break through complete.
About a year after did I get my hands on Changa. A very good one! First time I tried that (alone) did I also come to this strange space and nothing more happened, I did empty the bowl but thought I might have had a to small dose. Poured up a new one about 20mins later and BOOOM!!!!! WOOOOOOOOW..!! OMG!!!!! This time,, I GOT IT, VERY WELL!
I came to a giant universal museum like feeling. Just like I was swimming in PURE consciousness. My "I" was not my EGO "I", everything felt like I, we I. At the very beginning was it very intense and one of these things (entities) showed me some thing that looked like a colorful plastic soaker (don´t know what the heck it was though) that spurted out various geometric shapes forms in different sizes and lots of different colors that combined to create patterns and objects. When I finally understood this, they took me to a new space. Now this space was far out from our planet, at least in felt like it. At this space there where new things for me to find out and so it kept going. Just like different rooms in a huge museum where every room had its own meaning for me to understand before we could go to the next one.
I got the strange feeling that being a physical being on Earth was a very heavy burden where "the others" did not want to be. Like thats a place where you must carry heavy weights filled with problems. Where I (or should I say WE I, not my ego) was floating was the most amazing feeling. A connection with everything and all the problems that was stuck in my mind before simply just disappeared, they where not there anymore. At least, I could not see it as any problems. I could feel many others swimming around in this pure consciousness. Not talking to anyone, just knowing everything. Like telepathic communication.
I very much focused on remember this as Iv heard it melts away heavier then a dream. Though I almost always remember my dreams in small details. Did I also remember this experience in every detail. It did last HEAVY for around 40 mins. Please, can anyone relate to this?
I have not felt like the right moment to share my storys here before, don´t really know why.
Anyhow this made me even more interested and it felt like I got smarter after this experience. After some month I went camping with 3 friends, we had shrooms aswell as changa. I did reed some interesting info here (not sure what user) regarding the synergy between psilocybin and changa so I thought if everything goes the right way and I get the right feeling I´d like to try it out. Everything went AMAZING, we got the best spot on a hill in the forest with an amazing view over a lake and everything was wonderful.
The shrooms did (at first) not feel like they where coming out strong at all, you guys can relate to while being tricked by a trip right? When it feels like your not tripping that heavy, you do some more, some more and then BOOM! it smashes right in your face
Right!? Well at this time had I been eating almost 3 dried grams of Mazapatec (the spiritual strain) while smoking a great hit of changa at the VERY peak. Ok for anyone interested, this was the most absolute AMAZING experience of my hole life (++GREATER), no thoughts about it but also the worst nightmare (experience) Iv ever had. Its a great story that I´d finally like to share here but not today, to got damn tired now and I guess for anyone reading, that would be to much
Need to save some for later as well right but I can tell you this, it did last for over 20 h (real hours) and the first feeling before I got raped by these entities was PERFECT BLISS. The best ecstasy experience x 10000. Like a HUGE universal orgasm that never ended. I was speaking (or the entities through me) this universal language that tells euphoric feelings while saying the words and the words created objects from geometric shapes in different sizes and colors just like I did see this thing do in the other trip only this time they kind of got stuck in me and it came out from me. One of the objects looked like a GIGANTIC Unicorn and as I am a capricorn (zodiac) I figured this to be a great name for me here at Nexus
Even after landing up to 2 days after was I still mumbling these strange words that I had never heard before but it still felt so amazing to say it. After som research on words like "alien language" and "universal language" I found a youtube where Terence McKenna was saying.... EXACTLY the same words
(and many others off course).
As I said id like to share this complete incredible and totally life changing story some other day if you guys like to read it.
Peace & Love to you all! I am here to stay..