Hey i'm soul_traveler, i'm seeking psychedelic medicines in hopes that they can help me get some answers to my personal questions and heal from the past that holds me back everyday. I won't get into the problems of my past because that's not important, i have learned to not blame anyone or anything for the things that have happened to me, because it is ultimately my responsibility for the way i feel about it, that has been a very tough lesson for me. I will say that i have anxiety and depression, and alot of it stems from my insecurity and confusion about my sexuality.
I am drawn toward Ayahuasca because of all the amazing things i have heard and read about the healing powers it has. I just ordered some Caapi vine and plan to experience what the vine has to offer, without a dmt plant, and then maybe add a little bit in the future to try and get comfortable with it. I don't have anyone that would sit for me to go really deep with dmt added, so i'm thinking about going to the Amazon to have a traditional experience with a shaman, but i would have to quit my job, though i'm not worried about that at all because i just want to heal so that i can function properly day to day. Question, can the same amount of healing be had by myself as i would get with a shaman in a traditional setting? Is there any other psychedelic medicines that any of you would recommend with my current situation? Iboga also interests me but the expense of a retreat is outrageous.
- soul_traveler