I have long held a keen interest in the fringes, extremes and limits of the mind and society. I've experimented in ways to push at those limits through pharmacology. Out of all the pharmacological agents the hype around dimethyltryptamine is most fascinating, but it wasn't until this summer that I finally stumbled across it. Through DMT I've had the most unique experiences, it feels like coming home but so very alien that I have a strong desire to explore it more and more. Although I have always been heavily sceptical it's become easier to sympathize with the peculiar beliefs that have been developed around this substance. I tend to think that until you can publish something on Nature it's not really anything to get too excited about , but I fully understand why this substance might convince someone of pretty much anything. It just is that unique that it blinds all sense of the everyday normal. So this fascination is what brought me here, and who or what is me?

I'm currently a student studying computer science and business administration, but I dream of someday participating in the biotechnological sector. I used to study biomedical engineering but had some personal issues causing me to drop out. To me genetic engineering is my religion, my spirituality, my ideology. Today we live as slaves to our nature, instrumentalizing biology is the ultimate revolution where we conquer this tyranny. It is our species event of growing up when we finally pick up God's tools of creation for our own purposes. Have you noticed that the most alien things in our lives are the living creatures found everywhere on this planet, our own bodies included! That's what I'm talking about! Meditating on life's complexity will surely drive us forward many ways and reverse engineering the body is the greatest societal megaproject ever conceived of.
... Other than a sucker for marvellous proteins I'm also somewhat of an oddity, I've even been diagnosed schizotypal (Schizotypal personality disorder (STPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a need for social isolation, anxiety in social situations, odd behavior and thinking, and often unconventional beliefs.), so I hope you can forgive me some occasional 'sperging

P.S. My nickname comes from the Greek concept of "root" or "beginning" etc. and it is also the root of my real name in addition to being relevant to computers.

Welcome friend , welcome.

Hello Arkhe,

Welcome to the Nexus! What a fascinating introduction essay. I really enjoyed reading that.

I'm a lifelong fan of science fiction myself. I've been waiting for real, programmable nanotech, ever since reading Drexler's "The Engines of Creation."

I came to DMT as a 40-year, hardcore, lifelong, card-carrying (literally ) skeptic. Gotta say though I don't have religion these days, I have certainly experienced what could only be called a personal spiritual awakening. And yeah, speaking as one who is decades into never being able to go home, so to speak, DMT sure was like going home.

The alien aspects I noticed from DMT were simply entities or structures within my visions that I had no vocabulary to describe. It was like I had never seen that shape before . . . .

And yeah ,for anyone who is skeptical of the alien or real nanotech, or the possibility of becoming engineered beings, well just take a look at the slow program (evolution/God/whatever) inside a human cell, .

I do hope you will enjoy your time here and contribute to threads. Your voice could be a very important one here in my opinion. Hope to see you around.

Kind Regards,
Pandora