Names Many,
Ive explored many different threads in this site, what a beautiful place of vast knowledge! Im 23 yrs old living in twin city region of Minnesota. I have known about DMT for a few years now, but have recently in this year been able to actually live the experience. Im not very experienced or knowledgeable in this area, but yet feel like ive known the molecule my whole life! I do understand the effects, and entered into the realm with a very mix of emotions. I had done my research on the effects of it mentally physically spiritually and medically. Needless to say i was very nervous yet very excited/intrigued. Let me give you some background. I grew up in a small tight nit church town; raised on god, family, love, and respect. Until the age of 16 I was against the use of any mood altering chemicals. Doctors and teachers always plead that I was an ADHD child; very smart but could not concentrate on anything for any amount of time. That was when I discovered maryjane. For me(all hemicals effect people differently) thc was the cure to my adhd. I decided one day that i would give it a try after realizing that i really dont like alchohol. I enjoyed the feel and was able to relax. It has been an obsession ever sense. I liked the naturality of it above all. But to reiterate; my grades all through school were straight C's, until thc came along, from there forth i went to a straight A student. Suddenly I could retain information and concentrate on things that perked my interest. My mother(who wont even take nos at the dentist) even accepts my use and respects it knowing that it did help me and im responsible enough where im not out getting drunk, drinking and driving and putting myself and others in danger. But inside I always knew that there was more. I learned that there is a lot more to us as humans including where we came from and what we are here for. The abilities that we have and things we are capable of. Im still on that exploration.
I will note, that I have abandoned my christian beliefs and am still in a state of ambivalence as to any answers as to our true creators and how we ended up on this beautiful plane in the first place. I will say that i lean more twords the teachings of the ancient Sumerians and the texts that have been recovered from them.
Anyways, I tried other drugs searching for the.. sensation.. that I could feel was out there but could never describe or explain. I started small, with shrooms, to ecstasy and molly, to acid and mescaline. Nothing could fulfill that void that i couldnt describe but somehow knew was out there. Eventually I stumbled apon "the spirit molecule" and that started a whole new journey. I thought, this has got to be it. This must be the thing that has been missing. Two years later when I finally found it I was very pleased to learn that, indeed it was. I no longer feel inside myself that feeling of searching for the thing I could never describe. I had found it. Now my body and mind yearns to learn, understand, and explore this beautiful thing. There are many areas of this that I have not explored yet, because my experience with DMT was short lived as to there was only a small supply of it. Now I desire to create both the extract and ayahuasca with my own hands and not get it the.. wrong way. Im no chemist.. and dont understand a lot of the lingo used, but and very thrilled to get a grasp on it.
Ive studied this site time and time again going thru stages of not believing I could do it to going back and trying to have faith again. Regardless, I finally decided to register and introduce myself to the community. Im excited to learn what you all have to teach.
Its a beautiful world!
Many