First act : meeting

My first contact with DMT was on Psychonaut (thanks Ouroboros).
Then, I tried spice chemistry. A brown and very smelly result ! I decided to smoke it onto aluminium paper, in my university room. I even forgot to put music on : you can see the excitation of the moment. It was a little bit of a waste in my room, between remains of my consumptions and no washes was done... So, a first ANARCHIC trip. I encountered Jimmy Hendrix (because I had a 3D poster of him in my room) and his "pals", I guess. They were joking at me, litterally ! And when I went backwards in my bed, I saw little beings, like sprites, who were hiding and laughing at me.

End of the first trip.

The many followings were an exploration of the DMT Universe. No, I won't describe it, do you really want me to show you the surprise ?!

Second act : face the evil

One day, by a beautiful evening in forest, DMT send me to the depths of my child memories, what I had already nightmares of. When I was back, I wondered : was it real ? If yes, it could explain a lot of things. If not, I am crazy.

Third act : to the end

I kept tripping in the evil of the DMT. Most horrific visions of the creation, and the memory was always coming back.

Fourth act : act of faith

I could'nt do more, my body was right, but my spirit was to the limit of the explosion. I drawn into what I think it was my last trip into DMT. An unlimited trip came to me, freed me from the All. The entities blessed me.

Fifth act : Freedom

When I came back from this last trip, I was in a perfect balance :
Whether this memory was true, and giving explanations on my life.
Whether this was false, so what ? I would have "only" put a foot in the psychosis and delirium, bringing my excessive consumption of psychotrops since my 14 years. Truth is, danger was here. But I think it was for all good, for my life.

Conclusion

DMT is an endogen molecule, acting in the center of the nervous system.
This trip bring the person in Her Universe, or her spirit, beyond what he went through.
And I love this molecule, if any love is possible between a molecule and a being.

Sorry for approximate english !

I know there is not a lot of informations here. This trip report represent a continuum of about 50 trips, but I don't exactly know which ones and I had good trips even between the evil ones.

1st question : do you need more information ?
2nd question : was this worth ?
3rd question : do you believe my DMT nightmare who occured many times was finally, in the real life of my childhood, true ?

Such details were in it. But I'm afraid I can't tell you this memory, not in a public forum.

(sorry about the double post, it was useful I think)

We can only speculate but it does seem to resurface past memories. Maybe its giving you a chance to see your childhood traumas from a different perspective with an expanded mind in order for you to reconcile with the pain and to have compassion for yourself so as you can understand how and why it has affected the rest of your life. Understanding in my opinion is a gateway to healing and the subconcious mind knows and cares not of the passage of time. In which lies the horror and beauty of being able to confront it and process it.