Hello everyone! My name is Euphor. I am embarking on post-graduate study in cultural anthropology and I'm considering shifting my focus towards the anthropology of consciousness.

I never thought I would be joining a forum dedicated to any kind of psychedelic substance. In fact, part of me feels as though there isn't much logical reason for me to do so at this moment in time. I have no intention of using DMT or any other drug any time soon. I am not ready and it will take a lot of time for me to be ready. Maybe years. I'm not going to rush the experience. However, it is becoming increasingly clear to me that my interest in following this pathway has grown and will continue to do so. Over the past week or so I have been surfing various message boards, reading various websites, and doing a lot of self-reflection. I'm learning a lot but I have so much more to learn.

This place (DMT Nexus) feels like the most put-together, wise, rational, and community-based place I've so far come across. Combined with my particular interest in DMT, it just feels like I should join and introduce myself. Whether I post much at all after that remains to be seen. I do not have much to contribute, having never experienced DMT, LSD, or any other such substance. So my contributions could only be minimal. However, for whatever reason, I am compelled to make this post. If that's all that happens, so be it. Perhaps it is simply a post I need to make for myself. I have a lot of thoughts that I need to work through, and writing them down will help me to organise and assess them better.

So what brings me here? The answer is complex, multi-faceted. Life brings me here. My entire past brings me here. As I write this I feel a strange sense of calmness and wisdom that is peculiar to this moment. I didn't feel it when I woke up this morning, or as I have gone about my business throughout the morning. It's only now, as I reflect on why I'm doing this and where my future could take me from this point on, that I have entered this state. It is one of awareness; awareness of my own power and connectivity with the universe around me. It doesn't always come so easily, but it has always been there. I feel as though it will always be there.

Years ago I called it my quiet fire — a knowledge burning at my core, slowly burning, being stoked every once in a while by insight and reflection. Perhaps it will be DMT that brings this quiet fire roaring to life, engulfing me. Perhaps not. I don't wish to put any conditions or expectations on the experience. I've done it before in a different context (still along my spiritual pathway) and been devastated because my expectations were not fulfilled. I will not do it again.

Why DMT? I think it's largely due to the fact that I have noticed a series of synchronicities revolving around my academic progression (and therefore one of my main dedications I n life), aspects that initiated my spiritual progression in the first place, and some things I have learned about DMT. But besides that, the fact that I feel some kind of nascent affinity towards DMT is maybe in itself enough. The more affinity I feel towards a substance, the more natural the process is going to feel. In theory.

I think that will do for now. Maybe I will be around, maybe I won't. Thanks for allowing me to post this either way

Euphor,

Take some psychedelics. Doooo it. There, I did my obligatory peer-pressure.

As a student of culture, you must know that many culture creators have applied all sorts methods to alter their consciousness. The dominant discourse on prohibited drugs is changing, but it still has a long way to go before it catches up to their potential. And if you grew up in any industrialized culture, you were likely sold a pack of outright damn lies about psychedelics.

You are correct that DMT is something truly special. But in what way? How is it different than LSD, or mushrooms, or mescaline (all lovely experiences in their own right)? There are a lot of books that can provide a decent reply, but as has been stated many times: words fail.

There must be some other way to find out...

DMT has found you and is knocking at your door because you want to know,as did I , I used to believe in god, the creator , oneness whatever you want to call it, I used to believe there was life after death, I used to think there has to be more to all this than what we can see. It was just belief, hope, desire, but now I KNOW !!!!!! I don't believe I KNOW , because I was THERE . on that note, the journey is not for the faint of heart,and can be quite terrifying at first and is beyond description. The word intense is not intense enough , so if you are content in your beliefs and are willing to wait find out when you leave this dimension ,leave it at that.especially since you have no experience with psychedelics. But if you decide you want to go to that dimension ,please find someone with experience to guide and sit with you.you will need to talk it out and integrate the knowledge and experience into your psych . A month later from my first couple trips and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. I am still a newby to all this but I felt compelled to -- let's say,warn you, it's an EXTREMELY powerful event and will change you forever

Thank you both for your responses. I am definitely going to do this at some point, I just want to make sure that I treat the experience and substance with respect. I'm sure almost nothing is going to prepare me for the trip, but that's going to be part of the preparation for it – the acceptance of that naivety. I'm also kind of treating the lead up/preparation as almost part of the trip. I don't want to be under any illusions about the experience being distinct from this reality. I'm sure it is in a sense, but at the same time the two are intertwined and inseparable in a fundamental way, from what I understand of other experiences.

Thanks again for your input!

Welcome to the Nexus!