Hello travellers,

I'm Sludge, a French psychonaut, 27 years old. I hesitated a long time to come here because I'm already very active on the forum psychonaut.com. But my exploration of DMT seems very unusual when I hear all my friends trips. I met so much difficulties that I thought it was a good idea to seek for advices here. I think that the fact that I read Strassman before trying DMT was a bad thing because I imagined the way it will be from that, and it wasn't. I extracted DMT from Mimosa Hostilis a few times, and much of it was shared with my friends. I tried several times to vaporize it, but its like I never really went very far.

At the beginning one of the difficulties we had was to vaporize efficiently. Now I manage to easily make "The Machine" so it's not a problem any more I think.

My first experiences were very soft but good. This feel of being purified and relaxed after the trip was in fact the most impressive thing. I had a few visuals and feelings of dissociation after that, but still kinda soft.

And the disturbing things started when I managed to vaporize well.

The way my universe changed (textures, colours, etc.) was really disturbing, especially because it was very fast, kinda stroboscopic. It felt very unpleasant in fact, like I was resisting and undergoing it, never a good thing with psychedelics.

Then I started to understand more what was happening to me when I increased the doses. It's like I was in the middle of the home or in the middle of a street of people from elsewhere. I never saw them, but I feel their presence. They do something with me, or I'm just in the middle of their world so when they move, they pass through me and push me. Or I am a part of their furniture and they make me turn in all ways, like I am some sort of Rubik's Cube.

Recently I started to really accept the experience and from then I didn't suffered any more from it. I much more understood it.

One day I was so happy that it was so easy that I started again after having sex with my girlfriend, only after one hour. I put Psytrance music but when I took the hit, I thought I made a mistake, and I saw a door closed on me, like if the inhabitants of their home put me in the cupboard. I misused and exceeded my rights, so they explained this to me, punishing me a little. But I felt a strong forgiveness because I was understanding. So it made me cry and thank "them". I was so happy to understand. I cherished them.

It's so intriguing how your mind can interpret what you see or feel and turn it to a precise explanation right away, like in a dream. And also like in a dream, what you feel is real (your emotions), but after the trip, you can easily take a distance from it and go back to your normal life.

At my last trip, I knew it was a good time to try again, so I did it. But something strange happened. It's like I was hit on the head, punished again but for no reason. But after that it was like my punisher was this time punished by someone higher, who explained to him he had to be welcoming with me.

It's where I am now, I can't wait to try again and go further and explore cyberspace, but it's strange how I never had a really really strong visual experience, never a breakthrough also. One time I took a huge hit, but I just blacked-out for half an hour (it seemed to me I just tripped something like 2 minutes maximum, like every time, and not stronger).

I think I should try with MAOI now, because I think that my body is not very receptive to DMT.

Hello again.

I've always felt this about dreams (have extracted but yet to try my supply of DMT). The way you put it so succinctly will stick in my mind. Thank you.


Mybe you got a door closed on you because you are trying to hard to break through? A lot of what you write is reminiscent of what I've read from others. Although it's interesting that a seemingly less tactful entity got corrected for being so blunt with you.

Perhaps you could try changing intentions. Just be willing to "listen". I've read that you can ask for help in hyperspace. Hopefully some more experienced members will chime in.


Anyway, welcome to the Nexus, Sludge

Thank you !

I don't think I'm expecting the breakthrough now. I know it will come. Now I just want to have the time to explore. My last experiences, and in fact most of them since the beginning, were way too short.

But like you say at one time I wanted to ask "them" some things. Like advice about my life. But I didn't, maybe I just forgot. I think I should prepare myself eachtime, trying to set a plan.

I'm also very curious to explore physically this world, and try to see the entities. It really feels like it's some kind of world with physical laws that we can explore if we put ourselves in action.

I will make my next extract soon, and I will read about MAOI. I think there are plants I can just take orally before vaporizing. It seems the most simple thing to do. Or maybe I will try to make changa.



Yes, the time before that I think that maybe I just gave myself the idea of me exceeding my rights, but after that, I don't think I could interpret this way the experience so quickly. It's even strange that I saw an entity as at fault.

Have you read The Teachings of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda? He wrote, and claimed was factual, about becoming an apprentice to a shaman by accident. In this literature he was being taught how to harness and navigate realms. How to switch at will between the physical/mind-throttled and spiritual/energy worlds. Weather it's true or not, the information contained in the first three books (first one's title is what I mentioned earlier) I have not had rupture false yet. It was his books that led me on this path and actually connected the dots on ALL religions, tao's, beliefs, even my own niggling thoughts on what, or more importantly WHERE, my psychedelic romps were as a young adult. I recommend them, with a grain of salt as you can look up the controversy around him. As another put it on another thread of mine, "they are beautiful books."

I have one of his books but not read yet. I will!

I had two DMT experiences yesterday. One was very cool and ecstatic. The other was very weird. I was sawing (not very visually) a little girl morphing into objects, like if it was a part of a normal role for people of her kind. It's the same kind of feeling I had myself of other trips, but there I was just spectator of it.

It's very weird because I can't find any meaning on theses recurring trips. It's just weird and maybe it's just that my brain interpret the effects this way, I don't know. I wish I could make the trip go elsewhere, because there is no point to such an experience.

As infinity is infinite, so is the level of needed understanding of what goes on in trips as I see it. Maybe it was just something to get you familiar with "normal" happenings in hyperspace.

Anyway, depending on which book it is, I'd make sure to start form his first one.

Below is a link to all of Carlos Castaneda's books in one easy to use file. Like I said, my favorite are the first three. This is in .pdf (adobe acrobat reader) format. You should be able to save it right to your computer. Hope you enjoy them.

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