Hello Nexians, First let me say, "I Love You and I am Grateful for Everything that you've done for me and I Thank You with my whole being and Immortal Soul."

This was many years in the making to voyage with mother Aya. I finally took the step last night with this wonderful healer, Coulby, who showed me her marvels. The day started out with a hike in the forest, and before we entered the forest we wrote down things we would like to release on a piece of paper. We also brought a sacrifice to give back to nature that we considered valuable. I brought this crystal necklace that I crafted with different kinds of crystals which had a Merkaba clear quartz for a pendulum. We then entered the forest with our pieces of paper of our releases and our sacrifice to the spirit of the trees. As we start this long hike, 2.8 miles and 3 1/2 hours, my dear friend told his wife and I to look for a plant that is calling to us. The scenery was outstanding, the moss was melting off of everything in sight changing dead decaying plant matter into new life forms in such a way that you'd just has to experience it for yourself. About a quarter of the way through the adventure I saw this enormous tree which was in the middle of the chaos of the forest. It had a huge base that split off into 3 trees, so I walked up to it and then around to the back. What I found was a perfectly shaped seat in the tree itself, so I sat down in it and started to meditate about my intentions and releases. As this happened I got the sensation that I was floating in the presence of something and then I started to sway in my mind's eye, then it struck me, the tree was communicating with me through movement and it was breath taking. I decide this was where I would give my sacrifice and releases, I pulled the moss back gently and slipped the piece of paper in between and folded the moss back against the tree. I found a hole in the tree that what looked like a wood picker trying to get some bugs at one point. I dropped my necklace into the hole and it fell right in I then covered it with some leaves and thanked it as I walked away. After this we walked farther into the forest to find Nicole and Coulby's sacrificial spaces and we did. We were smoking Mapacho throughout our trek as it has such a calming feeling when around nature and in the presence of powerful ancient knowledge and wisdom that I haven't fully began to grasp.

After the forest journey we went back to clean ourselves and gather some things for the experience that awaits us. My other friend Robby, that has been through his own angels and demons, was taking a high dose of Cyanescen Mushrooms because he has had a three day sweat lodge experiences with the Navajo Indians ingesting Peyote. Let’s just say he likes his control with these amazing teacher plants. That being said he was really interested in this type of ceremony and the magnitude of its energy. So anyways once we get back to Coulby's house around 7:30pm, we started to create the space, or should I say Coulby created the space and we were presence giving his our purest intentions. As we wait for Nicole to get back from dropping the kids off, we set up the crystals around the Oregonite generator which was hooked up to a 9 volt battery magnifying its energy, he then blow Mapacho all over them and in the Ayahuasca bottle an closed it. As we were smoking some more Mapacho Nicole walked in and we set up the Purge buckets and grabbed our pillows and blankets to get comfortable. Coulby and Nicole started lighting candles and got cups of water to drink. When this was done they went and turned off the circuit board to kill the electricity to the whole house. Coulby began to hum this melody that was so strange but familiar in a sense while he Saged the house and us from negative spirit and then invite positive ones in. Coulby was dressed up in his tradition shaman gowned. So now was the time for ingestion and giving out intentions before crossing over. I was first, I sat across from Coulby and he opened the bottle of Ayahuasca and blew more Mapacho smoke in it as well as the glass he was about to pour her into. He told me to look into his eyes to, what I've come to understand now, gaze at his spirit and to see him for what he truly is in all his beauty. He then filled the cup of the thick brew and gave it to me and my hand was shaking at the thought of the unknown. I meditated with her and stated my intention, "I would like to know and learn" then I shot the big cup of liquid in my mouth. Once all of the brew was in my mouth it filled my cheeks and then I swallowed it in two big gulps . Then Nicole and Coulby drank their cups and Robby ate his mushrooms then we waited, and had a little bit of humorous conversation.

As the night rolled on, my stomach was brewing the medicine more and more like it was building up. My reality was starting to shift, I felt like I was slowly floating out of my body. These strange eyes appeared then disappeared and kept doing this for some time and every time she'd appear she would reveal herself more and more, almost circling me, inspecting me like a doctor. While this was happening it felt like she was tinkering with my head making it elastic, expanding and contracting, expanding and contracting the natural movement of the Universe. Then I started to purge out the leftover medicine and some bio fluid. Then she really started to consume my complete attention I couldn't get over her beauty and the fluency of her movement, visual language. There was something about her eyes that captured me, devoured me. She was moving through the 5th,6th, and 7th dimensional realities all at once without pause like it was child's play. There was massive amounts of layers and transforming landscapes that had so much detail that you couldn't just focus on one thing for too long, it was always on to the next one and the next one, and as well to the next gift. All this time I'm purging out all the poison that I have consumed physically for many, many years and it was a lot more than I was willing to admit to but she held my head up, in a sense, not letting me go until she thought I had enough, for now. Those purges were the worst and the most important for the journey that still lies ahead. She made me confront my eating habits in such a way I couldn't deny them any longer and let go into acceptance, then every time hence forth the purge felt liberating. Every time I would purge the more I expanded and became one with the experience. That was the last of it, or so I thought, and I finally heard that high pitch ring and a low pitch buzz working in synchronicity to create this indescribable sound of the spirit world or hyperspace, or what ever you wish to call this space, personally I call it "It." Every time I would open my eyes to perceive this 3rd dimensional space I would see the web of life shining and glimmering with morphing colors in this energy field which would be the flower of life with no finite structure endlessly layered over this reality making it chaotic which would bring my attention back to her beauty. She started to work on my psyche and scratched off pieces of me here and there, I believe them to be the things I wanted to release. The way she moves and manipulates reality was astonishing as she moved in and out, splitting and spinning in a 360 both ways, phasing forward and backs, leaving layers of tracers and images getting bigger and smaller at the same time, and her eyes were appearing and disappearing at different depths all over my visual field, she was getting closer to me and further away from me while blending every color imaginable all this is happening at once . I just couldn't focus on just one of them you have to see them as one and not separate and she explained this is unity, then I purged hard but it felt great, then I expanded once again. She waved her arm at me to come over and follow her, so we started traveling into other worlds of wonders and endless bliss via portals and wormholes. Here she started dancing and those eyes, oh those eyes, were everywhere and nowhere all at once. Snakes started to slither out from underneath her so elegantly from one small point, almost microcosm in size spreading and spreading and spreading until they were surrounding me almost sizing me up in a way, it got overwhelming and intense so I asked her for help and to make it easier to understand, and she did, I purged some more and expanded. She continued to stun me and keep me in "Awe" at this point purging was far to few in between and then it happened I shattered into an infinite amount of molecules into the vastness of eternity becoming everything and nothing . I felt purified, thrown through the meat grinder and reborn anew. She slowly brought me down with so much love and care that I started to get aroused and I had a orgasm in my heart and it blasted out my crown, for lack of a better term. Absence is a wonderful thing to save for mother Ayahuasca, she really appreciates it. Once I was back I got her final message: she said, "this was only an introduction" that was the big twist. If that was just an introduction, then I don't know shit. She didn't verbalize any of the things I said, it is a sense of knowing, visual linguistics. When it was over, my whole field of sight was vibrating and that made it extremely disorienting. I felt like my being has transformed and my consciousness has transcended any boundaries I thought I had . In other words, my hard drive was wiped and I got a upgraded operating system, I have access to old memories and I can recognize old patterns but they no longer serve me, along with the old modalities.

She left me with this melody: Aya Ayahuasca... Viva Ayahuasca... you know Ayahuasca, I Know Ayahuasca, We Don't Know Ayahuasca... I love Ayahuasca... and every phrase is softer then the last fading into silence.

Thank You for reading this, I know it was long but I wanted to get it out and there is still so much more to integrate so expect edits or additions.

I Love you all equally and as you are with all your perfect chaos of imperfections.