So maybe the title for this post is a little sensational, however after reading Antrocles's interview in the Nexian one part that really captured my concern was the description of his shaman's response to smoked DMT. For those of you who haven't read the interview the shaman basically felt that ayahuasca is grounded because of the massive amounts of ritual, specifically chanting, that are put into every stage of the gathering, production and consumption of the brew.
He told Antrocles that smoked DMT would need all of that ritual x10 and that he saw "barbs" in him that were the equivalent of "spiritual venereal disease" that he had accumulated from his use of smoked DMT. Now I'm not trying to step on any toes here but that statement has gotten me really wondering how much we're potentially exposing ourselves to malevolent behavior patterns that want to language themselves on this plane of existence when we smoke our favorite tryptamine without proper navigation through the ideasphere.
It especially stuck a chord with me because ever since the first time I
really smoked DMT I've consistently found it to be too much for my liking. There's certainly been several handfuls of times that I've smoked it over the past few years but only on sub-breakthough doses and if I'm being honest in my years of using DMT I've never really BROKEN THOUGH for more than a few seconds. Now I'm not trying to be arrogant but I'm one seasoned fuckin' psychonaut who gobbles quarters of shroomies without hesitation. To me the anxiety of having DMT assault and dominate my 5HT2A receptors within 30 seconds has always been wayy too heavy and in the past I've been able to convince myself that that was just because of the dose and that if I took a big enough rip of de changa I'd be better able to release myself into the flow.
Again I'm not in any way trying to suggest that DMT can't be used in a productive context but after reading that article I'm left wondering what the hell that context is exactly. For instance I know that it's generally kind of understood that the lower doses of Ayahuasca that a lot of us drink in the comfort of our own homes doesn't necessitate the presence of a shaman because it doesn't leave us as open to attack as a higher dose would. Indeed with adequate preparation, respect, charging of the brew, and proper sensory input during the experience (the harmony of songs, art, and incense reprograms us I feel while in these uber sensitive states) I can palpably feel my spirit getting stronger with each confrontation of all the malevolent shit that gets kicked up in an ayahuasca session.
I feel comfortable wading around in the psychedelic kiddie pool solo but if the majority of us can only handle that up to a certain point by ourselves how the hell can we be expected to ground the a breakthrough smoking experience without assistance? I ask because up until now it's seemed that I can handle heavy ayahuasca trips better than changa just because it comes on over the course of an hour and I'm kind of anxious person so it's no big deal; that was just my preferred method of consumption. However now I'm left wondering what types of spaces I may or may not have been casually sending my friends into because it may or may not have been wayy easier and more convenient to introduce people to spice through the brevity of the smoked experience.
I've gotten the sense that mayhaps it's unethical to send people into territory you haven't fully scouted y'self, but like I said up until now my excuse was just that I'm an anxious person and that that's what's clouded my low dose experiences. I figured I'd gather the balls to breakthrough someday but now I'm wondering if most of us have the capacity to deal with the hyper advanced wit and cunning of the more powerful negative beings that one will inevitably come with the landscape of a smoked DMT experience by ourselves? The other part of me wonders if Antrocles gave that dude straight freebase and if he woulda been less inclined to make that statement if he had tried changa....
"If you do not have a plan you will become a pawn in someone else's"
T.M.
I, like many other people here, am a compulsive liar and make up everything I say on this forum because I'm bored and have an overactive imagination.