Hi Nexians,

It's lovely to post here once more. I had an account before and posted a few things, but I was homeless this summer and lost my login (featheredged), and lost my then email provider.

The forums have nonetheless been a constant companion. I've read voraciously, and especially love reading experience reports and keeping up with on everyone's progress with ACRB and Phalaris. So thank you, loves, for your brilliance and your insight.

Around this time last year I went through the "romance" period with our favorite molecule. After overdoing it a bit and learning some restraint (thank you hyperslap), I have come to a place of peace with the presence of this magic portal in life. I spent many months with no entheogens until I could integrate my experiences. The spirit guides I met returned to me in dreams and encouraged me to quit adderall (thank you), to study spiritual writers, and to practice yoga & meditation.

Some weeks ago, I was able to have a breakthrough experience with meditation alone. For over an hour I stared at a lightswitch in silence until the corners drifted out of the room and I found myself once again in contact with an inhabited hyperspace-like environment. It moved much slower than a spice breakthrough, but lasted two hours. The red rose artwork on the switch shapeshifted into a red goddess / angel who I recognized as a guide who had contacted me last year. The time I spent in her presence was healing and she helped dispel my doubts and fears.

Now I find myself in the presence of sacred plants once more, better equipped and more stable than last time. It's been a long journey, but I hear the call and I'm ready to learn and explore.

Thank you Nexus & Nexians. You are a light in my life.

Radiating love,
-Av