Hello! I seem to have found myself thrust into a world that I have been inactively seeking out. Being a firm believer in the idea that what you need will find you when you need to be found, I rarely pursue any sort of psychedelic experience with gusto. It was no different on the night that I got introduced to DMT. I was familiar with it, and the seriousness of the molecule. Very aware that it is a teacher, and not something to be taken lightly, I was offered the opportunity to partake.

"It's finally found me," I thought. I got excited, but I was also fearful. What would it reveal to me? What would I learn or experience? I didn't know enough to quiet my fears, and I took a few minutes to think about this and ready myself. I opened my mind to any possibility and got comfortable. I ingested, and I was sold.

My experience made me wonder seriously about the nature of things, and how we as people treat each other. My mind is exploding with all of the possibilities of what is out there where we can't see. I feel jubilant, and happy to be a part of this sequence of life, even though life is no longer what I previously thought.

I have been reading the forums for the past week, forming invisible bonds with people over these mysterious tubes that they don't even know about. Your stories are fascinating to me, and I find similar themes everywhere. What I am hoping for by joining this forum is to have conversations with people about this subject that I feel so shy to broach with the people I am close with. You have all (mostly) experienced things like me. You know that I am not some drug-addled lunatic talking about gods in the skies that we will never be able to explore. You know about the soul-shaking vibrations and mysterious speech that consists of squeaks and cartoon noises.

Some of you might know about the yellow room and the invisible entity.

I have done it twice now, and while that is not frequent, it doesn't lessen the impact that these two experiences have had on me and the way that I live my life. I haven't smoked a cigarette since the first time I smoked DMT, and I was a smoker for 14 years previously.

This post is heavy with the word "I" and that's not very nice, but I suppose it is okay because this is an introductory essay. Not very sure about what to introduce... except for my experience in submission and acceptance. I look forward to participating with you all!