From the time I first discovered masturbation at the age of about 13 I have been hopelessly addicted to orgasms. From that time until VERY recently I would masturbate anywhere from once up to ten times a day (less if I got laid that day, more if I was solo) and I would try and fuck as many people in that 24 hour period as possible. Sometimes having sex with up to four different people per day (on really good days). I have been to extremes, that would surprise even the most sexually experienced, to get my rocks off. I have lied. I have cheated. I have destroyed relationships and hurt a lot of people along my path. A typical day for me, over the last three or four years, has consisted of browsing craigslist ads, perusing dating sites, and even going out in public to try and find my next sexual adventure.
Well, something has changed me. I began smoking DMT a couple months ago and to date have done it four, possibly five times. I'm not exactly sure. I don't remember exactly when I lost interest in sex, but over the last month I've come to realize that I don't spend any more of my time "looking" for sex. That's not to say I don't still enjoy sex. Instead of spending every waking moment in pursuit of a sexual encounter, I live my life and only happen to have sex once, maybe twice a week when my girlfriend and I happen to find ourselves engrossed in one another.
I did not receive any communication during a DMT trip to suggest I needed to change my life, nor was I in search of a cure for my sexual addiction though for a long time I knew it to be detrimental to myself and those around me. I simply just lost that constant craving. I really wish i understood how this drug has the ability to change people, often for the better. I have so many questions. I have so few answers.
When I began using DMT I craved that breakthrough scenario of entities showing me the secrets of the universe, I have yet to experience a breakthrough and have yet to meet any entities. With as much good as this drug has given me maybe I don't NEED a breakthrough to get what this drug had to offer me. I am in no way finished experimenting with DMT. I've benefited from its use, and not in any way that I had hoped or expected to. I've gained a level of respect for DMT that I didn't know it deserved. It has improved my quality of living. I have a new respect and awe of nature and I now crave to give something back. I haven't figured out how i will accomplish this, so I will just leave it up to DMT to guide me.
I hope you've enjoyed reading this, and as always questions and comments are appreciated.
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