I'm going to share an experience I had without realizing what it was, and I will try expound upon what I learned from that experience, even years later. I hope it makes sense.

I have been a dreamer since an early age. I say that as a badge because I feel far too often people just ignore dreams. Somewhere along the way, thanks to constant nightmares, I learned how to lucid dream. This was fun playground for me, but for years, it stayed like that. Until I had a massive breakthrough.

Skipping all the details, in a dream, I shattered to pure white light. My body stopped existing, and I was everything and nothing all at once. I heard and saw all, but most importantly, I felt all. Ejected from the dream, I was changed, irrevocably. After two weeks in a fog of life, I returned from what I can best describe as an ego death. I understood a lot of my flaws and selfishness, and how horrible of a person I was. For years later, it took me a lot of internalizing and meditation on what I experienced to fully grow beyond that past life.

I have learned humility through this experience. I am can be turned inside out and ripped to shreds and left raw and exposed by my own brain chemistry. Humans, or at least myself, have such a tentative hold on reality that a few bucks or through our own natural processes we can lose all of reality as we know it. Naturally, this realization led me to the Nexus.

My desire to become a full-member is to see what the Nexus can really offer me. I may not post a lot, but I try to make every post of substance that interest people. That's all I can really offer.