Hi I am a new member from the sunny regions. I am interested in all things psychotria and acacia
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I have started to delve into the world of spice and my first recent DMT experience has completely changed my life and how I see the world. Now I have developed an interest in ethnobotany and see all plants in a completely different way to how I used to. When I go out now, especially on walks in the woods or national parks, I find myself paying much closer attention to the plants around me. I can almost feel their energy coursing through the air, like they're trying to tell me something. It's more of a fanciful sense that I have rather than some delusional ooh the plants are communicating to me with esp type of thing. Although if they did I wouldn't mind!
Before this I had no experience with hallucinogens at all. They say that DMT is the most intense hallucinogen you can experience, but I can't really say, since I haven't experienced any other form of psychedelic.
On the face of it, it seems irresponsible, because I did my first trip alone in my house a couple of weeks ago. I'd researched it for an entire year beforehand, reading and listening to as many articles and lectures on alternative mental states as I could Mckenna, Grof, Lilly, and even Jung and Freud, and a lot of others.
Doing the trip alone was a big leap of faith. I was terrified at the beginning, but I also had the sense that I would be all right. Some would say it was a stupid thing to do, but I am glad that I did it by myself, because it means I was unhindered by the expectations or influence of another person. I told myself that if I lost my mind so be it. I didn't lose my mind, although the first few moments before breaking through after taking as many puffs as I could, were terrifying, like I was a lost child falling off a cliff.
I don't recommend that you do it by yourself the first time. I did do a lot of research, and I also meditate daily, so I have a sense of how to empty my mind and heart of all thoughts, including negative ones.
I'm here to share thoughts and opinions with people who are interested in expanding their mind and exploring the limits of their mind through the spice. I have this notion that I want to try and master these experiences, to remember them clearly, and to record them in a systematic way, rather than just dabbling and having the experiences flitter away moments after I've had them, leaving me with just a few profound glimpses here and there, but never completely being able to retain them. I think that if I can do it enough times, and approach it in the same disciplined way as meditation, I can learn even more from it.