Hello and a warm welcome to the Nexus...
About this "need/craving" for spiritual knowledge, don't forget that "all suffering is caused by desire" (Buddha)...If you are open to new knowledge, it will come to you at the appropriate time, don't go looking for it too much...
An interesting read might be "Illusions/Confessions of a reluctant Messiah" (Richard Bach)...
I believe that when you have chosen a Path in life, everything you need will come to you at the right time, be careful with expectations though as they will cloud your judgment...
Mind you, I could be totally wrong
PLUR
My avatar was taken from google images and is actually a work of art by NEIL GIBSON, credit where credit is due!
Bodies don't have souls - souls have bodies
Old enough to know better, young enough to try again