"Beautiful shock and terror"I have to say I am in complete AWE and want to share my first encounter with DMT. On August 1st of this year (a few days ago)
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(In a tent in the mountains with a shaman we talk)
Shaman: Are you ready to step past the dark veil of lies and let go of your ego? Are you ready to accept the fears ahead?
Me: I've been self destructive for so long. I feel so disconnected, I want to be happy and move on, it's so hard!
Friend: Trust me, this is what you need, trust me.
(I looked to the Shaman)
Me: What are you offering?
At first I was expecting him to do some kind of Shamanistic dance or prayer with crystals)
Shaman: I have medicine that will help you more then you can imagine. But I warn you once you take this your life will change.
(At that point I was getting a little nervous, I was thinking "dear God, did I walk into a cult?". I sat in a circle with them on the floor and thought about what he said, and then he looked down at me..)
Shaman: Are you happy with your life?.
Me: No! I am miserable, I have been for many years.
Shaman: Then lay down and get ready to leave this place.
Me: Honestly, I'm a little scared now...
Shaman: You should be terrified!
Friend: It's OK, just relax.
(I laid down on a floor mat and they covered me with a blanket. I stared up at the top of the massive tent where a circular window showed the starry night. Then the Shaman walked up to me and said..)Shaman:Inhale this vapor and hold...
(I took one deep breath and exhaled. The following is a raw description of what I remember. I wrote this that same night on August 1st 2013.)Inhale deep
Can not hold long
Exxxxxxxxxxxxhaaaaaaaallllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeee...........
A massive and violent vibration shock
Shattering loud I freak out
Hands reaching for something to hold on to
Everything is so bright and illuminated
So scared, so much fear
Sucked into a vortex
Lights flashing pass me a billion miles an hour
I plead for it to slow down but it speeds up
I hear my spirit guide say calming words
I feel the force pull me violently until everything is stretched out
Then a unexplainable shift of all I was or knew
A flash and I was not moving
Everything I saw became like a negative picture
Then is shifted into a colorful haze
Floating into a ridged, suspended state
So much glowing blue and green
So strange
So scared yet so happy
Did I die?
Can I go back?
So much to understand
Something changed
I am me in this place
Where am I
Space?
Glowing things spinning all over
I have to be in outer space
I see a something
A green or blue monkey
Why is it laughing and pointing
Posing strange and smiling
Dancing
Now in my face smiling
Pushed back gently
I drift back slowly
I return to my body
Everything is still bright and vivid
I am back! I am so happy!
(I could not stop laughing tears of crazy joy)
Was I in heaven?
I am so excited I can not contain myself
Why?
What was that?
Who was that?
The blue alien?
Was it a monkey man?
Where was I?
How long was I gone?
20 minutes?
What?
One thing is certain
I will never be the same
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