Thanks for the warm welcome! I wrote up my recollection of my first salvia trip, if anyone has any trip reports or threads that you think would be cool for me to check out, please link them! The main thread that drew me into the site was this one, you posted on it Dioxippus.. Some very compelling points made all around!:
https://www.dmt-nexus.me...aspx?g=posts&t=19558Anyways, here's my first trip:
My first introduction to salvia was my freshman year of college - a roommate showed me a video of some guy going completely crazy outside, yelling that "the grass is the fur of a muppet." When said roommate told me it was legal, I immediately did some minor online research into what the trip does and how to use it. I didn't dig very deep. One week later, a package of 15x extract arrived in my student mail box. There was something oddly amusing about having a hallucinogen legally shipped to my school after I'd recently been punished for marijuana and alcohol use on campus.
That night, four of us sat out on the balcony of our dorm room. Like many other fools on the internet, I had one of my roommates video tape me (but the video never ended up online). Neither of my roommates had done salvia before, but our other buddy who was there told us that it's very unpleasant and he had no desire to ever do it again. I packed a bowl of salvia in our bong, with a little pebble as a makeshift screen. Butterflies fluttered in my stomach, I felt like I was going up the first hill on a huge rollercoaster. The only substances I've tried were weed and alcohol, so this would be my first hallucinogen. I took a huge rip and held it in as they counted me off. Around 14 seconds, I released the smoke and my head rolled back onto the chair.
I can't say that I truly "remember" what happened. I can remember in my head certain aspects of it, but nothing I could put into words that would be comprehended properly. There were different planes, that seemed impossibly majestic, and I was becoming parts of all of them. Some moments, I felt like I was drooling uncontrollably out of a line of mouths which were on my forearm. My roommates walked me around the dorm and objects that were being presented to me were not separate objects, but in fact, a part of me. There was a council of voices, who knew many things which I did not know. And because I was just beginning to see some of these things in their way, they were sort of laughing at me, playfully. Their voices came in rhythmic waves, like a long repetitive limerick. It was a bit shocking to me that my consciousness was drifting along the superficial surfaces of every object in the room, and I couldn't get behind them. Can't remember exactly what the voices were chanting, but there was at one point the establishment that I was going back, except that I wasn't really going "back" because "back" was already here⦠And then I was back outside on the balcony (I later saw on the video that they walked me around the room for a bit, then had me go outside). One of my roommates was sitting across from me outside, still filming. Reality sort of swirled back in around the lens of the video camera, and at that point I just said "turn off the camera." I looked through the window inside at my other roommate and our friend, and they seemed 2-dimensional through this window. They slowly stretched out and reconstructed into a 3D form. When I went back inside, the guy who'd done it before said, "And that's salvia. Isn't it so awful?" I was still so deeply in awe of everything I had just experienced, so I gave him a light "Yeah.." as I sat down and tried to figure out what this reality is again. It felt like my whole existence is a weird video game, and when I smoked salvia I had just put it on pause for a few minutes.
I didn't completely hate it as he seemed to think I would, but I was a little weirded out by their presence, so I decided to take a bus ride across campus to hang out with some other friends at another dorm. On the bus ride over, I was listening to my iPod and bobbing my head, feeling slightly enlightened and still trying to process everything that I had just gotten a glimpse of during my trip. A few seats down, some guy was bobbing his head with a grin on his face as well, listening to his headphones. Our eyes met at the same time and we both sort of smiled bigger, acknowledged one another, and moved to the rhythm even more. Somehow I felt like I knew this guy, although I had never met him.
When I got to my friend's dorm, I told him and his roommate that I had just tried salvia, and it was unlike anything I could have ever imagined. His roommate suggested I try DMT, which I noted, but to this day I haven't had a decent opportunity to do so.
I tried salvia again two weeks later. At the end of it, I couldn't remember anything, except I had a very similar feeling, as well as this instinctive voice in my head which told me "you were just here, you don't need to come back here so soon." I didn't try salvia again for a couple years. When I tried mushrooms, I had a few moments of "salvia flashback," a familiar feeling, my first connection I made to it was similarity to the salvia trip. Recently, I tried to chew some dried leaves after rehydrating them. It was hardly a trip, but I felt the rhythms and some of the similar feelings came back to me in subtle ways. I have yet to try it again, and have been getting a lot more into meditation as well as researching salvia trips and analyses by salvianauts. A very interesting plant. I'd never really thought of myself as spiritual before trying it, and it was a very life-changing experience. Very glad that I did it and excited to further explore the rabbit hole.
