Hello everyone,

Recently I finally worked up the courage to undergo a Pharamahuasca experience and I'm sure I'm in company who understand when I say it was the most revelatory experience of my entire life.

It was through Graham Hancock I had first heard of Ayahuasca and his articulate and honest accounts of his experiences convinced me that Ayahuasca was the teacher I needed. I'd done my research on DMT and the various compound forms for oral ingestion, however Pharma was the most appealing to me on the basis of it's availability to me and my disdain of 'purging'. Close to 6 months it sat dormant in my drawer as my fear was too great, not necessarily of the experience but more because I feared that I could be permanently changed. I could see this for just the resistance it was but couldn't look it in the eye until recently.

So I took the plunge. I approached the experience with reverence and positive intentions and was almost instantly rewarded after taking the MAOI - I think my mind appreciated the gesture of trying to better myself. After taking the DMT it was a gradual ascent of bliss lasting approximately 2 hours before I was taken away. When I went to the other place the first thing I was shown was the pure unadulterated love of the universe. Once I had seen this I was ready for the bad things. This was an intense experience that focussed on several aspects of my life but there were 3 main areas I was directed to. The first thing was the battle of my ego, I was shown how destructive and misdirected my internal dialogue and thought patterns had become, all because of my desire to try to control each situation I faced. Next was the damage I'd done to others and the unintentional cruelty I exacted on others as I tried to cater to my own wants. Finally, I was shown purpose and that it was my duty to follow my passions just for the love of the art and not for the rewards as I had done before.

After 2 hours in the other world I came back to Earth. I feel reborn, I don't ever recall having this spectrum of emotional sensitivity, as cliche as it sounds I genuinely feel alive for the first time.

I'm hoping some of you can relate to this experience, apologies if it's long winded but believe me this is much shorter than what I'd originally written

welcome to the nexus GunsGermsSteel, and welcome to the amazing world of DMT!

Your introductiong was beautiful. I love hearing about positive changes DMT provokes in people and seeing that they really do benefit from it. May I ask if you had had previous experiences with psychedelics or was this the first entheogen you have tried?

I have had very similar messages: being told to follow my passions / my heart with full enthusiasm and trust, instead of worrying about all the reasons I might not be successful in my endeavors. I suppose it sounds almost silly and simple this message, but at the right time in your life it can be quite a revelation, especially if you can feel the immense difference this simple shift in attitude has on your entire being.

In any case, take a look around the forum, join us in chat and enjoy and spread your new found positivity! Happy traveling!

Thanks for the warm welcome!

I've previously had mushrooms but this was about 10 years ago and purely for recreation, I had a great experience but with better intentions could have gotten more out of it. Other than that I'd pretty much bought into a lot of the propaganda surrounding Psychedelics so was pretty fearful of them, it was only when they were introduced as Entheogens that I considered them more seriously.

I know completely where you're coming from, I'd always felt bad that I knew how to address certain problems but couldn't do it whereas now seeing how insignificant my problems are in the grand scheme of things and trying to take my interests out of the equation the problems are being ironed out as an effect of pursuing things more positively and objectively

Welcome GunsGermsSteel!
Nice introduction thanks for sharing

Hey GunsGermSteel. I'm glad that the loving spirit of pharma could be so accommodating for you. What size dose did you take to facilitate such an experience?

Hi, the DMT dose was 150mg, I'm not sure what measurement was used for the MAOI or RIMA but I believe it was a Syrian Rue extract if that helps to gauge a comparative measurement. Having looked at online recipes they seem to suggest double the amount of Syrian extract to DMT but as I say, I don't know the Syrian dose I consumed sorry!

wow, that's a hefty dose! No wonder you had a profound experience And this was your first psychedelic in 10 years? Whoever advised you wasn't very worried about how well you could handle it... People here start out with 50-80mg to test the waters.

It sure felt like a hefty dose! Yes it was my first as of late and sure won't be the last! SWIM is friends with their provider and discussed the experience at length, after deliberation about their intentions for the experience SWIM agreed to take the deep plunge so kind of risky on his part but his friend seemed confident in SWIM's plan if things did go unpleasant (and they apparently were in many places!) to interpret the negative elements as a personal issue which requires work.

In retrospect I would have been more cautious and would recommend anybody else doing their first dose to stick to the lower doses. Not because I had any negative aspect to the experience but just having felt the power of Pharma it felt a little disrespectful to assume my own strength in handling things but she saw I entered with good intentions and treated me well.

nice to meet you gunsgermssteel,

that was a very interesting expierience story thank you for sharing.

and 150mg?! goddamn your my hero