Hi,
I've written a DMT experience report
from a transgender perspective:
"Transgender DMT Experience" Psychedelics helped me to understand that, by definition, I'm transgender (bio male, trans female) and that I basically suppressed this gender reality.
I've verified it. There's no doubt. Just bought myself a lovely pair of shoes today, shoes made for my gender that is, and I felt so right and so good walking into that store because I wanted them so badly once I had seen them in the window, and I really love to wear them now. That's just one example of my gender expression. That said, there's no doubt that I'm transgender.
I only realised and accepted this reality with a little help by my friends from the spirit world, so to speak. I always knew I have some very female characteristics in my personality, and I was totally fine with them, but I never considered myself transgender nor did I conduct any research on transgender.
Now since I've realised that the degree of my femininity, in relation to my biologically male body, DOES, by definition, resemble a trans personality, I'm free. I feel better. Because I now know what I need to do, and I allow myself to do it now, and it's like breathing fresh air.
In fact, I'm proud of myself. I walk the streets wearing a trace of makeup around my eyes, little enough that it's still acceptable for a very feminine man in the rather liberal city I live (that's enough to be clearly visible when somebody looks at me while we speak). It feels very right to me. I feel comfortable. I'm able to express myself now.
The downside of my liberation is the awareness of the psychosocial situation, like I'll still have to keep a low profile at work, in the quarter I live (there many families with kids) etc, and I have to accept that my body lacks certain features I really would like to have, features that would make me feel complete if I had them. Though I still feel much better now, even though I lack these features, even though I can't just walk out of my flat dressed up the way I'd like. But I can put up with that. As I did so far in my life. Yet being aware now that I'm trans, being able to express my trans personality now, feeling it, being it, this FEELS WAY MORE PLEASANT than ignoring or suppressing it any longer.
I was wondering whether other psychedelics users experience gender shifts (e.g. a man experiencing himself suddenly clearly as a woman) on trips. Or whether this type of experience is typical for trans people. In my case this happened regularly, not exceptionally, and on a broad spectrum of psychedelics, as I've stated in the aforementioned experience report. And it felt so good being connected to my real gender during these psychedelic experiences, that I ended up doing DMT with the intention to vividly experience myself as woman. I haven't found any similar reports so far.
So, anybody had similar experiences? Once, twice, exceptionally, or frequently, often? And as cis- or as transgender person? Please drop a note if you have had such experiences, thank you, I'd highly appreciate it.
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