Nice report DeDao!

I need to work with cacti more at some point..Im just waiting till all my cacti grow up fully..then I will have a large self sustainable supply to keep me occupied.

ipuma consistently enters the sleeplike trance and from there visions are lived

How much cacti does it take to induce this feeling within you personally?

So I have tried to write up a trip report before but I have a very difficult time describing it as many of us do.

Although it seems impossible, I will try to speak of it with my best ability.

So, this was a few weeks back so forgive any "choppiness"

I had felt the need to have an experience about for about a month or so before this experience. I finally broke down and ordered 24-26 inches of San Pedro. I cooked it for around 10 hours and within that 10 hours I did about 2-3 boils. I concentrated the green tea down to a dark brown smudge the size of a large shot glass(all 2 feet).

At about 9:30 pm at night I grab a laptop and set up Carbon Based Lifeforms: A World of Sleepers. It is just something to get my mind off of the horrible taste. I will not be listening to it during the ceremony itself.

I finally feel ready to drink the smudge. I grab a large glass of orange juice and ice cubes (to numb my mouth) and take deep breathes and offer my soul/mind/body to what ever the plant is and to the 4 directions of life. I slowly ingest one of the most vile but holy plants the world has to offer me at this time in my life.

I come back to DMT-NEXUS chat for a short period of time, at this time I am in a way meditating. I am very inactive in chat and really am just reading peoples conversations.

I feel like I am about to go on a very deep journey. I think I was right.

10:30pm-11:00pm

My stomach is feeling very acidic and bubbly. I go downstairs and lay down on my couch.. This is the beginning.

Disclaimer : From this point on it becomes very hard to put into words. Forgive my stumbling attempt.

I turn on Tycho, I love them. It sets me in a good mindset for San Pedro. I start to feel more and more off and my stomach talks to me even more about how I shouldn't put all this acid in my poor tummy!

I had my christmas tree lights on. They were nice to look at for short periods of time but soon the self exploration came.

I am going to guess it is about 12:00pm-1:00am

Visuals are coming on but I didn't pay much attention as that is not why I ingest these plants. I close my eyes in order for the spirit to use my mind/body to its fullest extent.

I begin a stage that I do quite often while partaking in these ceremonies. It is where I start analyzing my past few weeks.

I could have said this then, done that there. That type of thing. Little things.

All of a sudden.. San Pedro says to me..

"When are you going to stop blocking yourself from looking at real problems?"

I almost giggle at this and say back in a way.. "Really? Alright lets do this.."

Immediately, my conscience flips to how my relationships with my family are torn in ways. As they are strong in ways that are also weak.

I can't say the trip is "dark" here, but it is taking a more personal turn for sure.

San Pedro shows me what is wrong with my family life and I say:

"Well, can you tell me how to fix it?"

San Pedro quickly replied with:

"That is not my job, that is yours."

I feel weak and tired and scared when San Pedro is no longer to help me in these problems.

I think of ways to help this situation..

It is time for the Icaros..

Now, talking about this part of the trip gets very emotional for me.. This was one of the most magical, meaningful experiences I have had.. I can't explain how I felt about these songs besides that I knew what they were singing about.. They were healing me, holding me, telling me it was okay and that the light is always there to guide things to where they are meant to be..

I am getting goose bumps just talking about it..

Lord..

*deep breathe*

These songs meant so much while undergoing this experience...

I go deep into my psyche and soul for 6-7hours..

It is around 7am..I open my eyes.. I look out my back door..The world..The world is so bright, colorful, beautiful. I am in the Garden of Eden again..

San Pedro takes you through hell and gently takes you back to heaven, where we always are, and says here my child, you are safe, see reality for what it is, love.

I am restless at this point and my stomach is very upset from the mix of orange juice and the San Pedro tea. I take a tums and drink a smoothie.

I feel better now, the Sad Pedro is still coming in waves and I am still very emotionally sensitive.

I rest the rest of the day. I called my father and spoke to him, it was good for me..

I texted all the people who I love and told them that I love them.

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To conclude, this experience was very healing and healthy for my soul at this point in my life. I usually have an experience every 6 months and will probably have one in the summer.

Bless all that walks on this wonderful earth.

Thanks for taking the time to read this report. I tried my best.


Your friend and brother-

-DeDao