After being unable to travel to Tikal for 12/21 festivities, I decided I could celebrate all the while in the comfort of home. I had received my Chacruna and Caapi months prior, and kept them out in the open amongst my shrine where I meditate and practice yoga.
The day before I began the process, I saged my small cottage and didn’t go out, refrained from speaking even to my cats. Was quite centered and reflective.

As it was my first time and without a sitter I measured out 25g of each, simmered the vine for 3 hours x 3 and layered in the light on the final pull, staying present in the entire process, whispering intentions into the pot. Used a lot of distilled water, and waited for the day of administration to boil it down. This took several hours and left me with two servings. Added to the brew both Muna and Guayusa, to ease nausea as well as keep me awake. Passion flower extract, lemon, and ginger were also in there so the final product taken with a little honey tasted quite good.

I downed the first while listening to a TM lecture, and began meditating shortly after. At an hour onset I played Ikaro and laid down on my mat. 30 mins later still nothing, so I drank the second and final serving. I danced ecstatically around the prophesized time of the end and beginning, focusing on heightening universal consciousness. Meditated some more, but after 4 hours gave up.

Cut out yerba matte and all stimulants two days prior. Was eating nothing but seeds, nuts, fruits and veggies. I take pham Lyrica but had abstained for a day prior. Overall this brewed only a feeling of failure, even unworthiness. I had been preparing and looking forward to this experience for months and combined with last minute plans breaking for my trip to Guatemala, I'm still feeling pretty down about it.

My plan is to prepare yet again, this time tripling the doses, not sure what else I could of done wrong other than dosed too low. Even my DMT vaporizing sessions have been dull as of late, I keep going to the same place each time: it feels like a carnival and there is a man there with an outstretched hand full of goodies, a cheshire grin static on his transforming face. I almost feel mocked.

Does Anyone have input?

Good look, G. I look forward to posting a success story, thanks for the suggestions.