Erase,
Just sending my and everyone's love in your direction. This is been a tough week for you and others at the Nexus, but I'd hate to see anyone disappear due to it.
Yours is not an easy burden,
https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/d...aspx?g=posts&t=38990 my friend. Anyone who bothered to read your introductory essay and follow up could see that.
There are several phases to grief and there's nothing wrong with taking as long as is needed to go through them. In the interim, I hope you can feel at least some of the love that I and others are sending your way.
This is an interesting community, one moment being very hive-mind like and the other just brimming with real world diversity. Sometimes it tests us and sometimes we test it. But, Traveler has worked hard to make this a place that has very high standards and stands out from all others (I believe).
Your Amanita guide/post was amazing and immediately got picked up in a permanent archive. This place can benefit from you. And I hope you can benefit from it/us.
So, again, just sending you lots of love and support during these difficult times.
"But even if nothing lasts and everything is lost, there is still the intrinsic value of the moment. The present moment, ultimately, is more than enough, a gift of grace and unfathomable value, which our friend and lover death paints in stark relief."-Rick Doblin, Ph.D. MAPS President, MAPS Bulletin Vol. XX, No. 1, pg. 2Hyperspace LOVES YOU