Hey everyone.

At the beginning of this year it seemed like I received the call of the spirit molecule. The universe pulled some strings and I had my first terrifying experience yet I was intrigued, and a month or two of patient waiting later I had a second, more mystical experience.
The last year has been extremely stressful as I have moved house four times and have been trying to work through a lot of personal issues, and on the second trip I felt actual love for the first time in years. Like unconditional, accepting, forgiving and REAL love. It was very healing, and got me on a path to becoming (I hope) less judgmental and negative.

Then for months it disappeared from my life and made another appearance a couple of months ago when I pushed as far as I could go. For a week or two, blasting off several times a night almost every night did for me what months of therapy couldn't. It made me feel to my core that I need to forgive myself, to say yes to others more, and more importantly to ask for what I need. I still struggle but I'm much more calm and my social anxiety has been reduced greatly.

Currently on a break from hyperspace, I still have many things from previous voyages to implement in my life before I take on more.

Hello eschu,

Welcome to the Nexus. Sounds like you've had a couple of amazing and rather deep experiences. You are wise to take however much time is needed to properly integrate such experiences.

Also, many folks here either do not use DMT actively or are on an enforced break due to the lack of accessibility of our main DMT source plant, MHRB. This is opening our eyes to the prospects of growing our own plants at home as well as finding new plants sources and extraction teks.

I would encourage you to maybe try extracting your own in the future, once some of these issues clear up. It not only takes questions out of it like what was done to it by whom and when, but it also increases one's immediate supply. Plus it can be fun and fascinating.

So, please take a good look around and dive right in. Post, reply, participate, etc. I look forward to seeing you around and am glad you signed up.

Again, welcome to the Nexus.